Discussion friends have made plans for when I die

[waistcoat]

im lucky enough to have a friend group that i can be open about my suicidal ideation with,

ive been really worried about how they will all process my death as i know it will hit them hard due to how close we are

today i found out that there is a plan for when i die (as they have accepted it's almost certainly going to happen (and soon)), and omg its just such a relief.

they are all in different countries, so knowing that they'll actually be together in person to support each other is really calming and nice, i know they'll need it :<

im really going to miss these guys, they've made the past few years awesome and im so so lucky to have them. i hope they know how much i love them… i keep telling them and i give them hugs when i can but ik thats not enough

im really looking forward to dying :3 it gives me butterflies in my stomach.. the past few days have been rough since my od failed :( i was really ready to go and was very sad when i woke up :< hoping to try again soon, ive got the pills, but i kinda wanna get sn again .. but ill need to wait until im in my new apartment for that. i guess we'll see how long i can hold out for x3

 

[Worndown]

Write each one a note that says just that, how you feel.

 

[waistcoat]

White each one a note that says just that, how you feel.

i am <3 its taking me agesss… literal montjs so far dkdjsj worth every second though

 

[monetpompo]

unrelated. what a cute profile.......



it's really nice that you have such an accepting friend group even though they all live in different countries! it's hard for most people to find a single person that accepts their suicidal ideation. i agree with @Worndown that you should write them all notes telling them how much they mean to you. it would make them all feel really appreciated and would make them feel less sad when they inevitably miss you. i feel happy that you're more at peace thinking about a successful attempt ♡

 

[waistcoat]

unrelated. what a cute profile.......

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it's really nice that you have such an accepting friend group even though they all live in different countries! it's hard for most people to find a single person that accepts their suicidal ideation. i agree with @Worndown that you should write them all notes telling them how much they mean to you. it would make them all feel really appreciated and would make them feel less sad when they inevitably miss you. i feel happy that you're more at peace thinking about a successful attempt ♡

thank you <33 gabriel dropout is an amazing show :3
and yeah!! i am definitely writing them all their own letters, they are incredible:3

(dont get me wrong lol they arent happy about it but they understand)

 

[qwert3948]

you have amazing friends

 

[waistcoat]

you have amazing friends

i really really do :3 i love them so so much

 

[northevelyn]

It's a weird place to be, where people have somewhat accepted your death.

 

[waistcoat]

It's a weird place to be, where people have somewhat accepted your death.

yea it is kinda a weird spot to be in, but it is making my last days a lot easier, so im glad :3

 

[Dayrain]

i kinda wanna get sn again

What happened to the sn you had?

 

[waistcoat]

What happened to the sn you had?

i told my therapist about it and then had the police called on me x_x suffice to say im not making the same mistake again

 

[northevelyn]

i told my therapist about it and then had the police called on me x_x suffice to say im not making the same mistake again

I planned on ordering some and mentioned it to my therapist. Luckily my therapist is cool and didn't call the cops

 

[waistcoat]

I planned on ordering some and mentioned it to my therapist. Luckily my therapist is cool and didn't call the cops

be careful, mine was also cool for a few weeks until they changed pace

 

[northevelyn]

be careful, mine was also cool for a few weeks until they changed pace

I've been seeing her for years

 

[waistcoat]

I've been seeing her for years

thats good then