ctb★prince
villain otd
- Jul 7, 2023
- 110
i feel like im being betrayed by my friends, they know that im jealous of people finding happy relationships, they have seen how after years of randos obsessing over me i was left alone after dropping my fake people pleasing act, they have been with me when two of our other friends started dating in secret, they would talk behind my back, hate on me and eventually try to destroy me as a twisted way to get closer to each other, ive never done anything to them, turned out i was just picked randomly, now the same two other friends who would cheer me up after the previous two drifted apart from us are doing the same, theyre exluding the rest of the group, joking about dating, sometimes sexually - im vocal about this making me uncomfortable, and being progressively meaner and meaner towards me, and you know what, it wouldnt even be such a big issue if not for the fact that they were the ones actively convincing me that dating within a friendgroup was bad and only leads to bad things, they were the ones who pushed those ideas onto me, i want to talk it out but at this point theyll just snap at me for having a problem, im scared, i need more friends, someone to feel safe with, this is getting ridiculous, im so afraid of saying anything, and we are supposed to spend holidays together, i dont want to hurt them and i dont want to get hurt either, what do i do what do i do what to do
they startes getting mad at me for the weirdest reasons, eg, not being able to share the same interest in men as one of them, having issues with talking to my mother, being bad at a game, going nonverbal when stressed, and some other random things, one of them keeps trying to go all psychological on me and im fully expecting them to start listing of reasons for why im a bad person or some shit next time we talk, or i might be just paranoid, maybe they dont do this intentionally, but the furthest this goes the more i doubt it, theyve never been like this before, this hurts so much
they started getting mad at me for the weirdest reasons, eg, not being able to share the same interest in men as one of them, having issues with talking to my mother, being bad at a game, going nonverbal when stressed, and some other random things, one of them keeps trying to go all psychological on me and im fully expecting them to start listing of reasons for why im a bad person or some shit next time we talk, or i might be just paranoid, maybe they dont do this intentionally, but the furthest this goes the more i doubt it, theyve never been like this before, this hurts so much
i feel so dirty and evil after writing this but i had to tell someone before i go insane and blow my head up
they startes getting mad at me for the weirdest reasons, eg, not being able to share the same interest in men as one of them, having issues with talking to my mother, being bad at a game, going nonverbal when stressed, and some other random things, one of them keeps trying to go all psychological on me and im fully expecting them to start listing of reasons for why im a bad person or some shit next time we talk, or i might be just paranoid, maybe they dont do this intentionally, but the furthest this goes the more i doubt it, theyve never been like this before, this hurts so much
they started getting mad at me for the weirdest reasons, eg, not being able to share the same interest in men as one of them, having issues with talking to my mother, being bad at a game, going nonverbal when stressed, and some other random things, one of them keeps trying to go all psychological on me and im fully expecting them to start listing of reasons for why im a bad person or some shit next time we talk, or i might be just paranoid, maybe they dont do this intentionally, but the furthest this goes the more i doubt it, theyve never been like this before, this hurts so much
i feel so dirty and evil after writing this but i had to tell someone before i go insane and blow my head up
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