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mashiroll
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- Jan 5, 2024
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I dont wanna give too many details for the sake of privacy, but I genuinely feel so soulless. I'm not trying to find sympathy or to victimize myself, I just hate myself for letting it get this far. It's not like I can just stop being friends with her anyways, I see her almost weekly and we share a friendgroup. We came to a mutual agreement to stop more personal activities together and hang out exclusively with our friend group present, but even then that doesn't sit right with me. I can't talk about this with anyone else that I know. Shit, even I have this feeling at the back of my head that the entire friendgroup knows, and they're waiting for the perfect moment to drop me. I took down the pictures we have together, deleted it off my phone, muted her contact... I just feel so disgusting. I hate myself. I don't know what to do anymore, or if this friendship is even worth saving. I don't even feel like getting out of bed. I could use some general advice on what to do next, literally say anything. Good or bad I deserve it. Thanks and cheers! :)