Friday going to talk therapy,
Within this day within this misery,
Even if it works,
I know it will hurt,
Deep inside,
It could be pride,
Or ego,
I shall not let go,
Of my reality,
Within rationality,
All information,
It gets recycled,
Within all titles,
Within all labels,
I do not care,
Anymore,
I cannot die,
I must live within,
This travesty,
I still want to die,
I do not lie,
Because my reality,
Of all of our insanity,
Of being human,
This pain is mental,
And emotional,
I shall try to live,
Just for you,
Even though death,
Is what truly I seek,
We all know it,
But I cannot die,
It could be,
Only if I could,
I would be this world,
It makes me empty,
How shall the void,
Be filled,
There is nothing,
For me,
Just this life,
Within the strife,
I hate to be me,
I wish I could be you,
Not self loathing,
Within clothing,
How will I end my existence,
The persistence,
The suicidal they understand,
Unlike the others,
They have no idea,
What is it like to be "normal"
Just kill me please,
Just do it kindly,
Look through the data,
You could find me,
I hate to live within,
This reality,
The life I have I don't deserve,
This place on SS,
I wish I could with you,
Because how can I live,
I ask you this,
Am I truly better off dead?
Yes or no,
Yes and no,
For I do not want to,
Either,
Wither or wallow,
In this world,
All the happiness,
Could not be granted,
God forgive me even,
If your creations don't,
For I can't believe,
Even if I want to,
They does not seem to be,
Any truth to it,
Within all comprehension,
There doesn't seem anything,
For me to give you,
Why be alive,
When I want to die,
Not to be broken,
I hate my sensitivity,
I want to die,
Or maybe I don't want to live,
With some of the people in this world,
I don't mind the company of others,
It does not bother me,
Will you see how this plays out,
For me will you look out for me,
Not to bother,
Send me away kind and gently,
You can find me,
Within the data of all reality,
Not waste time,
Or your money,
For it is the most powerful drug,
Within world,
The sword and the gun,
And the word,
And the pen,
And the paper,
On the computer,
Or your phone,
Clear and dark,
Of all of the net,
But I rather be dead just like the rest,
A fragile peace, built on war, and death,
Within all disease,
Of all misery,
Only treatment,
For all this famine,
We spread,
All the joy in the world,
We tend to ruin it,
I sing this song,
For however long,
For truly what is my purpose,
What is my meaning,
Within all sins and virtues,
All demons and my angels,
For the grand scheme,
Within all realities and all fantasies,
I don't like to cry,
For why can't I be me,
Am I truly this bad,
Of a person,
Or am I that good,
For what am I really,
To all of you within world.
Within this day within this misery,
Even if it works,
I know it will hurt,
Deep inside,
It could be pride,
Or ego,
I shall not let go,
Of my reality,
Within rationality,
All information,
It gets recycled,
Within all titles,
Within all labels,
I do not care,
Anymore,
I cannot die,
I must live within,
This travesty,
I still want to die,
I do not lie,
Because my reality,
Of all of our insanity,
Of being human,
This pain is mental,
And emotional,
I shall try to live,
Just for you,
Even though death,
Is what truly I seek,
We all know it,
But I cannot die,
It could be,
Only if I could,
I would be this world,
It makes me empty,
How shall the void,
Be filled,
There is nothing,
For me,
Just this life,
Within the strife,
I hate to be me,
I wish I could be you,
Not self loathing,
Within clothing,
How will I end my existence,
The persistence,
The suicidal they understand,
Unlike the others,
They have no idea,
What is it like to be "normal"
Just kill me please,
Just do it kindly,
Look through the data,
You could find me,
I hate to live within,
This reality,
The life I have I don't deserve,
This place on SS,
I wish I could with you,
Because how can I live,
I ask you this,
Am I truly better off dead?
Yes or no,
Yes and no,
For I do not want to,
Either,
Wither or wallow,
In this world,
All the happiness,
Could not be granted,
God forgive me even,
If your creations don't,
For I can't believe,
Even if I want to,
They does not seem to be,
Any truth to it,
Within all comprehension,
There doesn't seem anything,
For me to give you,
Why be alive,
When I want to die,
Not to be broken,
I hate my sensitivity,
I want to die,
Or maybe I don't want to live,
With some of the people in this world,
I don't mind the company of others,
It does not bother me,
Will you see how this plays out,
For me will you look out for me,
Not to bother,
Send me away kind and gently,
You can find me,
Within the data of all reality,
Not waste time,
Or your money,
For it is the most powerful drug,
Within world,
The sword and the gun,
And the word,
And the pen,
And the paper,
On the computer,
Or your phone,
Clear and dark,
Of all of the net,
But I rather be dead just like the rest,
A fragile peace, built on war, and death,
Within all disease,
Of all misery,
Only treatment,
For all this famine,
We spread,
All the joy in the world,
We tend to ruin it,
I sing this song,
For however long,
For truly what is my purpose,
What is my meaning,
Within all sins and virtues,
All demons and my angels,
For the grand scheme,
Within all realities and all fantasies,
I don't like to cry,
For why can't I be me,
Am I truly this bad,
Of a person,
Or am I that good,
For what am I really,
To all of you within world.
