Help Freaking out

[Ximbica]

The time for me to kill myself is arriving and I'm freaking out. I have been planning this for more than a year and have decided that tonight is the right time.

However, as the moment gets closer, I'm feeling more and more anxious and nervous. I'm really afraid I won't me able to go thru with it, and at the same time, the knowledge that my life is unbearable makes me feel like a complete failure for wanting to chicken out of it.

How do I get in the mindset that will allow me to follow thru with the plan?

 

[Redt2go]

I don't think you're chickening out it's okay to pick another day

 

[Iceangel]

You cant and shouldnt force yourself if your not ready. Theres no shame in not going through with something or with going through it. Just take a breath, try to relax, and think of what led you to where you are now. From there youll find the answer that brings you the most peace.

 

[zadig777]

whats ur method?

 

[Ximbica]

whats ur method?

The Amitriptilyn cocktail. I have everything I need, there are no longer any excuses why I should delay this.

Part of the reason I am freaking out so much is that I know if I don't do it today, tomorrow I will wake up regretting my decision to keep on living this nightmare of a life.

I Really can't deal with this shit anymore

 

[suffering]

I've been stuck in limbo for so much time.. I know how hard it is to want to go through it, but yet to feel something stopping you. It's a nightmare, hell on earth.
I hope you manage to find peace, regardless of your decision.

 

[Final Escape]

You cant and shouldnt force yourself if your not ready. Theres no shame in not going through with something or with going through it. Just take a breath, try to relax, and think of what led you to where you are now. From there youll find the answer that brings you the most peace.

So thoughtful

 

[Davy]

Ximbica is dead. he sought some kind of help and what did he find? A lot of fucking people who should be dead by now instead of being here encouraging others. You are the worst kind of people in the world. Get it over with, cowardly and selfish.

I'm sorry for your loss, I can only hope that they have found peace.
Also I am not sure that saying people on this forum should be dead is very conducive to your message.

 

[Redt2go]

I'm so sorry for your loss :( @Ximbica