I won't type out a long response as I am busy getting cleaning done before work tomorrow, but here's a reply I wrote in another thread:
"I can relate to this, mainly because I tend to hold very strong positions on things and my views are not juuust perfectly in the middle where everyone would like them to be. Social norms? I've transgressed every single one. I will literally speak my mind even if it greatly offends someone. I have a great dislike for psychology and therapy as well so I even worry about fitting in on this forum and on atheist forums. Like it's the only framework we have left for understanding humans and how they should act now that religion is off the cards for more people. Idk. I was watching that clip from Bojack Horseman the other day that goes "everybody loves you, but nobody likes you" and it hit a bit close to home. It is hard to change just for other people's convenience."
I was watching House MD a while back and I kept relating really hard to some of the things House said/did, despite the fact I am a female and none of the 7 psychiatrists, psychologists and therapists I have seen in my lifetime ever mentioned narcissism. I was misdiagnosed with Autism as a kid, but from what I have seen Autistic people often try to follow rules/norms rather than break them, even if it is very difficult for them or they can't always manage to. (Although the PDA subtype, which is currently only regonised officially in the UK, does seem to have the opposite effect on the individual, but do note I am generalising here and an Autistic persons approach to following rules or norms, or trying to, depends on the individual)
You might like this subreddit (it's mainly for those who struggle to get into romantic relationships but some people post on there about being friendless/lonely in a platonic sense too)
r/ForeverAlone: A subreddit for Forever Alone.
www.reddit.com
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