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Once you got N did it provide some relief? Did knowing you had a peaceful option to get out of the pain help you face the day?

I've heard stories of smokers who have quit but still keep a pack of smokes in their house. Supposedly it helped them control cravings knowing the cigarettes were near. Just wondering if anyone has experienced anything similar with N.
 
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Once you got N did it provide some relief? Did knowing you had a peaceful option to get out of the pain help you face the day?

I've heard stories of smokers who have quit but still keep a pack of smokes in their house. Supposedly it helped them control cravings knowing the cigarettes were near. Just wondering if anyone has experienced anything similar with N.
It really does. I know im going to die painlessly and i dont have to continue through this hell for another 40 years or so. After everything ive been through i feel like i deserve it.
 
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It really does. I know im going to die painlessly and i dont have to continue through this hell for another 40 years or so. After everything ive been through i feel like i deserve it.

Yeah, that's what I thought. Even just moving towards getting it gives me some comfort.
 
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It really does. I know im going to die painlessly and i dont have to continue through this hell for another 40 years or so. After everything ive been through i feel like i deserve it.

Would you mind if I PMed you to confirm I'm using the same email that you used for A?
 
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Would you mind if I PMed you to confirm I'm using the same email that you used for A?
Yeah you can PM me.
 
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Once you got N did it provide some relief? Did knowing you had a peaceful option to get out of the pain help you face the day?

I've heard stories of smokers who have quit but still keep a pack of smokes in their house. Supposedly it helped them control cravings knowing the cigarettes were near. Just wondering if anyone has experienced anything similar with N.

Yes.
Yes.
Yes.

Yes.
 
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Once you got N did it provide some relief? Did knowing you had a peaceful option to get out of the pain help you face the day?
Yes, it has done exactly that. I've also been working on my suicide note and getting everything together to make it as easy as possible to kill myself if/when I reach that breaking point. It's the only thing that gives me comfort and I feel like it's the only thing I have any control over. Any time something bad happens I just think about how I can quit at any time.
 
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Yes, it has done exactly that. I've also been working on my suicide note and getting everything together to make it as easy as possible to kill myself if/when I reach that breaking point. It's the only thing that gives me comfort and I feel like it's the only thing I have any control over. Any time something bad happens I just think about how I can quit at any time.

Can I ask how you went about getting it?
 
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Yes, it has done exactly that. I've also been working on my suicide note and getting everything together to make it as easy as possible to kill myself if/when I reach that breaking point. It's the only thing that gives me comfort and I feel like it's the only thing I have any control over. Any time something bad happens I just think about how I can quit at any time.

Can I ask how you went about getting it?
 
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It really does. I know im going to die painlessly and i dont have to continue through this hell for another 40 years or so. After everything ive been through i feel like i deserve it.

Can I ask how you went about getting it?
 
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Once you got N did it provide some relief? Did knowing you had a peaceful option to get out of the pain help you face the day?

I've heard stories of smokers who have quit but still keep a pack of smokes in their house. Supposedly it helped them control cravings knowing the cigarettes were near. Just wondering if anyone has experienced anything similar with N.



Well it should do ,but still need a lot of courage to take it .if it was an instantaneous act eg just drink it that be fine, but its the preparation of anti emetics dosage etc prior and hoping they dont have bad effects on me , which may prevent me drinking the N that is my concern . having the N has not took that fear away .
just wish i could have someone with me when i do it but they be a criminal if there was someone with you ,also not many people would be happy to sit with you unfortunatly.
 
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I'd image it does because the countless hours you spend on thinking ending the pain is ridiculous. That's the real suffering. So it finally puts an end to the method researching fiasco. Now you can just do it when you feel like it and you know you're on borrowed time.
 
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well i dont think its quite that simple not for me anyway i just dont know the best amount anti emetics to take hear so many variations 30mg 40mg ppeh says 60mg

if im in pain i only get 1paracetamol in hospital as im so underwerweight ,so worry about best amount for me for anti emetics .
no one seems to have taken a dose anymore than 20mg .for other reasons
but havent heard how many someone actually took before N and was successfull ,
wish sonnenblume has said how many she was gonna take, as i said all different amounts by various authors but no definate amounts
 
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well i dont think its quite that simple not for me anyway i just dont know the best amount anti emetics to take hear so many variations 30mg 40mg ppeh says 60mg

if im in pain i only get 1paracetamol in hospital as im so underwerweight ,so worry about best amount for me for anti emetics .
no one seems to have taken a dose anymore than 20mg .for other reasons
but havent heard how many someone actually took before N and was successfull ,
wish sonnenblume has said how many she was gonna take, as i said all different amounts by various authors but no definate amounts
Are you taking about n? If I remember correctly sonnenblume used sn. Sorry that I don't know much about anti emetics, but based on what I read it almost seems like we just have to have luck. I heard there are people who didn't take any and succeeded.
 
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