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CuriousAboutThis
Uncertainty in life uncertainty for the next life
- Dec 30, 2018
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For the desire of having my own family,
If I continue to live despite from time to time,
Of wanting to die perish from this world,
By my own hands as I tried,
Life is but a dream,
Sometimes life is a living nightmare,
We call that craziness,
Insanity, and or lack of humanity,
Forgive me for all my sins and my virtues for how many do I have?
Family, friends, pets, and a support network,
Continuing this life from the ashes of a Phoenix and arising anew,
How about you?
Can you do the same,
If you can then stay strong even if it gets old,
If not I won't help you end your life,
But at this moment within time,
I would not judge you nor hold a grudge against you,
For I would like to understand you,
So I can know you're pain,
What will I gain from learning of such harm,
Unlike the warmth of the touch of a kiss from the woman I love and some of the others that I care for and love,
The pain I can gain by learning is for the sake of perspective,
Oh perspective how one sees the world,
By experiencing what our brains allow us to,
Don't let others control you or try to fool you,
Don't fool yourself your brain and body and heart however faint whether you're a saint or a sinner however strong or however weak or meek you choose you're life and your death within whatever the circumstances some didn't get to choose,
I, however, will continue to live this life we were born from a flash out of darkness from the void born from the stars one with the earth born from dirt,
There are multiple ways we were born from this existence I choose to continue my existence no matter the pain and no matter what I will gain or lose I must continue to live with all the pleasures and pains of this world and whatever it has to offer us,
Within this universe one or many,
Regardless of the uncertainty that leads towards doubt,
Faith the name of my daughter and the name of trust and the name of my son Jr the bridge between my first name and the first name of my older brother,
Don't worry I will come back to all of you I just hope you all come back to me,
Peacefully.
If I continue to live despite from time to time,
Of wanting to die perish from this world,
By my own hands as I tried,
Life is but a dream,
Sometimes life is a living nightmare,
We call that craziness,
Insanity, and or lack of humanity,
Forgive me for all my sins and my virtues for how many do I have?
Family, friends, pets, and a support network,
Continuing this life from the ashes of a Phoenix and arising anew,
How about you?
Can you do the same,
If you can then stay strong even if it gets old,
If not I won't help you end your life,
But at this moment within time,
I would not judge you nor hold a grudge against you,
For I would like to understand you,
So I can know you're pain,
What will I gain from learning of such harm,
Unlike the warmth of the touch of a kiss from the woman I love and some of the others that I care for and love,
The pain I can gain by learning is for the sake of perspective,
Oh perspective how one sees the world,
By experiencing what our brains allow us to,
Don't let others control you or try to fool you,
Don't fool yourself your brain and body and heart however faint whether you're a saint or a sinner however strong or however weak or meek you choose you're life and your death within whatever the circumstances some didn't get to choose,
I, however, will continue to live this life we were born from a flash out of darkness from the void born from the stars one with the earth born from dirt,
There are multiple ways we were born from this existence I choose to continue my existence no matter the pain and no matter what I will gain or lose I must continue to live with all the pleasures and pains of this world and whatever it has to offer us,
Within this universe one or many,
Regardless of the uncertainty that leads towards doubt,
Faith the name of my daughter and the name of trust and the name of my son Jr the bridge between my first name and the first name of my older brother,
Don't worry I will come back to all of you I just hope you all come back to me,
Peacefully.