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Polyxo

Polyxo

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My sister's baby was stillborn, and she sees him in hummingbirds. Ever since he was born, she began noticing them more often and they visit her backyard frequently.

After I'm gone, I think I want to send signs to my loved ones in the form of cats. I think they're sweet and cute.
 
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lovedread

hell is other people
Jan 2, 2020
228
I don't really want people to think of me when I am gone. I don't expect them to.

But I really like your answer…cats are so cute 💖 I have one as my pfp
 
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Polyxo

Polyxo

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I don't really want people to think of me when I am gone. I don't expect them to.

But I really like your answer…cats are so cute 💖 I have one as my pfp
In my ideal scenario, once I'm dead and my body is disposed of, everyone's memories of me will be erased somehow—so they won't have to feel grief. I also don't want people to think of me when I'm gone, but the unfortunate reality is that we can't control other people's emotions, especially after we die. The living have the right to mourn how they wish. Spending time lurking communities for people whose loved ones caught the bus helped me accept this.

For that reason I hope I can send them signs from whatever plane of existence comes after this one. Our answers to our loved ones' questions about our CTB will never give them closure because I'm their minds, us not being alive is unnatural and is supposed to be impossible. Nothing will convince them that catching the bus is the most natural progression for us. All they will want is to feel our presence again.

Hopefully, then, we'll be able to at least comfort them by doing just that... Visiting them as cats!

I like your pfp so much!! Mine is also a cat!
 
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Gustav Hartmann

Gustav Hartmann

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Aug 28, 2021
1,062
If possible I would send them the future lottery numbers.
 
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Let Me Go

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Jan 12, 2024
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I would love to send butterflies. Even better if I could send multiple. I would revisit often, maybe as a different kind of butterfly, not sure yet. I would fly past them, in front of them, around them, touch them and then land somewhere else… next to them, on their belongings, or on their arm or hands … just hang out with them for an hour or so. And then do it again another day :)
 
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theboy

Illuminated
Jul 15, 2022
3,136
By telling them
I did it! (When I feel I did something proud for them)
And forgiveness (when I feel I've let them down)
 
bankai

bankai

Enlightened
Mar 16, 2025
1,193
In my ideal scenario, once I'm dead and my body is disposed of, everyone's memories of me will be erased somehow—so they won't have to feel grief. I also don't want people to think of me when I'm gone, but the unfortunate reality is that we can't control other people's emotions, especially after we die. The living have the right to mourn how they wish. Spending time lurking communities for people whose loved ones caught the bus helped me accept this.

For that reason I hope I can send them signs from whatever plane of existence comes after this one. Our answers to our loved ones' questions about our CTB will never give them closure because I'm their minds, us not being alive is unnatural and is supposed to be impossible. Nothing will convince them that catching the bus is the most natural progression for us. All they will want is to feel our presence again.

Hopefully, then, we'll be able to at least comfort them by doing just that... Visiting them as cats!

I like your pfp so much!! Mine is also a cat!
Yeah dude,we know ☺️

I remember @Daenerys Targaryen saying she found your pfp hilarious as well 😅

I hope she's all right.
 
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NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
706
I'm an atheist. Probably Not your targeted audience here, but hear me out. This is an issue I have been thinking/conflicted about a lot lately.
I guess at this point I basically believe after death is nonexistance. But just like the examples provided in this thread, I know plenty of people who have shared similar experiences. Some a lot more personal and specific.
So is it possible to maybe have spiritual beliefs while being an atheist? I just don't know lately.

Your question is really interesting. If there is a spiritual existence, I would want to send some kind of sign that's funny to whoever sees it.
My mother is definitely spiritual, although she is religious too. She has already told me she will signal me by leaving feathers ( she loves birds) But The thought of finding a feather after her death completely freaks me out.
 
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Polyxo

Polyxo

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I would love to send butterflies. Even better if I could send multiple. I would revisit often, maybe as a different kind of butterfly, not sure yet. I would fly past them, in front of them, around them, touch them and then land somewhere else… next to them, on their belongings, or on their arm or hands … just hang out with them for an hour or so. And then do it again another day :)
I think they'd definitely know it's you! The way you imagine interacting with them thru the butterflies is so sweet. Many people attach meaning to butterflies so I think they'd understand your message
 
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quietwoods

quietwoods

Easypeazylemonsqueezy
May 21, 2025
57
I've been uncomfortable with the idea of leaving a sign, if that is possible. I don't really want to remind others of my loss.

What I really want to leave is a better future for my niece and soon-to-be nephew. My sister had to take on an astronomical amount of debt to get a master's required for her field. She refers to that debt as her 'second mortgage', and it's been a major factor preventing her from moving to a larger house in a better area for her children.

I've been saving pretty voraciously over the past few years, originally for my own home down payment, before realizing CTB was going to be my future due to health issues and other factors.

I will be leaving her enough money to completely eliminate that debt. The sign I want to leave is my smiling niece running around a yard, as she is who I love most in this world.
 
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Let Me Go

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I think they'd definitely know it's you! The way you imagine interacting with them thru the butterflies is so sweet. Many people attach meaning to butterflies so I think they'd understand your message
Yes, they would know. I'm also going to tell them beforehand to look out for butterflies, after all I don't want them second guessing themselves once it happens. There's just something about animals, their spirit/energy is so pure. An encounter with a butterfly can be profound, it would be such a treat for a person. But it can happen with cats too! As they are very spiritual. I can just imagine you as a cat running after your people to give hugs/kisses/purrs and just keep them company for a bit.
 
Alexandra0

Alexandra0

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
244
I wish everyone would just forget about me, as if I never existed
 
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Let Me Go

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Jan 12, 2024
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I'm an atheist. Probably Not your targeted audience here, but hear me out. This is an issue I have been thinking/conflicted about a lot lately.
I guess at this point I basically believe after death is nonexistance. But just like the examples provided in this thread, I know plenty of people who have shared similar experiences. Some a lot more personal and specific.
So is it possible to maybe have spiritual beliefs while being an atheist? I just don't know lately.

Your question is really interesting. If there is a spiritual existence, I would want to send some kind of sign that's funny to whoever sees it.
My mother is definitely spiritual, although she is religious too. She has already told me she will signal me by leaving feathers ( she loves birds) But The thought of finding a feather after her death completely freaks me out.
I used to believe in a higher power then decided I didn't believe in it anymore, only to circle back to it as a full believer. It is okay to change your beliefs as you get more information. I have never been keen on feathers either but if they freak you out maybe you can explore with her other ways to show her presence, that is more meaningful to you. If she's a spiritual person I think she'd be very receptive to your ideas! Really, really.
 
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Polyxo

Polyxo

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I'm an atheist. Probably Not your targeted audience here, but hear me out. This is an issue I have been thinking/conflicted about a lot lately.
I guess at this point I basically believe after death is nonexistance. But just like the examples provided in this thread, I know plenty of people who have shared similar experiences. Some a lot more personal and specific.
So is it possible to maybe have spiritual beliefs while being an atheist? I just don't know lately.

Your question is really interesting. If there is a spiritual existence, I would want to send some kind of sign that's funny to whoever sees it.
My mother is definitely spiritual, although she is religious too. She has already told me she will signal me by leaving feathers ( she loves birds) But The thought of finding a feather after her death completely freaks me out.
Spirituality and belief in a Creator/religion are very closely tied, but they don't have to be. This sort of thing is extremely personal, and how exactly a "spirit" or "soul" is defined is entirely subjective, based on personal experiences. For others, being spiritual means having faith in a religion. But in my opinion, spirituality is tied more closely to how someone connects the human experience to nature, and how that interpretation can provide people with a greater sense of who they are and what their place in the world is. It's about figuring out where you are in the big web that links us to each other and the world around us.

I've determined that I simply do not have a place in that beautiful web while alive. And that's why I want to CTB.

Sending funny signals sounds really wonderful!!! I think it says a lot that you'd want to brighten people's day. That's very sweet. You're leaving moments for them.
 
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Daenerys Targaryen

Daenerys Targaryen

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Jan 4, 2025
430
Yeah dude,we know ☺️

I remember @Daenerys Targaryen saying she found your pfp hilarious as well 😅

I hope she's all right.
I'm back here, my loves. I was hospitalized for two weeks in a psychiatric hospital 💔
 
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bankai

bankai

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Mar 16, 2025
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I'm back here, my loves. I was hospitalized for two weeks in a psychiatric hospital 💔
Ah damn,I was wondering why you weren't around much.so sorry to hear that.Whenever I notice a prolific poster isn't around for a long time, I always wonder if they're alright.

Good to have you back though!!*firing celebratory shots into the air*
 
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Daenerys Targaryen

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
430
Ah damn,I was wondering why you weren't around much.so sorry to hear that.Whenever I notice a prolific poster isn't around for a long time, I always wonder if they're alright.

Good to have you back though!!*firing celebratory shots into the air*
My family admitted me there involuntarily, stripping me of my rights. They've deceived me and now they're forcing me to do things that exhaust me. They've left me even worse off than I was, and my mental health and cognitive decline are worse because of the pills. Thank you so much for your concern and a big hug. I'm still here, still with you, my loves💔💋
 
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Darkover

Darkover

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Jul 29, 2021
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i think i'll send signals in form of biological virus wiping out all life on this planet
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Mage
Mar 15, 2025
514
I don't expect to be able to send signs and would prefer to be erased from history, but, to play along with this interesting question... it would have to be something unwanted and obnoxious. That would remind people of me and make them remember what they didn't like about me, so that they feel relieved at the reminder that they're finally rid of me, instead of sad or missing me. Maybe - a fly that buzzes around their head and then drops dead in front of them. That should do it, yes.
 
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bankai

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Mar 16, 2025
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My family admitted me there involuntarily, stripping me of my rights. They've deceived me and now they're forcing me to do things that exhaust me. They've left me even worse off than I was, and my mental health and cognitive decline are worse because of the pills. Thank you so much for your concern and a big hug. I'm still here, still with you, my loves💔💋


I'm angry for you.I don't have much faith in therapists either. But I really don't want to see any therapist. Interestingly enough, my mother's a doctor and she has told me enough horror stories about the medical industry and therapists on a whole.

They're just as much in the dark as we are. There's a lot of trial and experimentation and finding out what works. Just no thanks.Some people end up even worse.


But your baaaaaaaaaaackkk!!!*downs celebratory shot* gulp


I never know what kind of Daenerys we're going to get. It's like a lottery. But like any lottery win it's to be celebrated. Some of your posts are kind and sympathetic. Some of them are hilarious as hell. you know what i'm talking about😂😂
 
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versuchskaninchen

Just a vampy boy
Jan 28, 2025
16
I don't know how many are demonolotrist here but I hope Loki or Lucifer sends them comfort in a warm breeze or a comforting good book.
Loki I set out cinnamon more often than not so I hope he sends something relating to that. And for Lucifer old books and dark chocolate so maybe related to those items or smells.
I haven't had time to give them offerings or thanks but I hope they offer my family some type of support.
 
bankai

bankai

Enlightened
Mar 16, 2025
1,193
will be leaving her enough money to completely eliminate that debt. The sign I want to leave is my smiling niece running around a yard, as she is who I love most in this world.
I'm sure you will. You will leave an indelible mark on these people.

They're very lucky to have you. You changed their life.That's just the truth☺️
 
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Daenerys Targaryen

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
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I'm angry for you.I don't have much faith in therapists either. But I really don't want to see any therapist. Interestingly enough, my mother's a doctor and she has told me enough horror stories about the medical industry and therapists on a whole.

They're just as much in the dark as we are. There's a lot of trial and experimentation and finding out what works. Just no thanks.Some people end up even worse.


But your baaaaaaaaaaackkk!!!*downs celebratory shot* gulp


I never know what kind of Daenerys we're going to get. It's like a lottery. But like any lottery win it's to be celebrated. Some of your posts are kind and sympathetic. Some of them are hilarious as hell. you know what i'm talking about😂😂
@bankai Thank you so much for your words. I completely agree. In my case, I knew they were going to mess with my head even more, and that's what they did with the pills. I can no longer think or remember. My family now says I have to do my part and that the pills aren't hurting me. Anyway, Daenerys is back, but with more cognitive damage🧠⚡
 
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bankai

Enlightened
Mar 16, 2025
1,193
I wish everyone would just forget about me, as if I never existed
I honestly don't think that's possible.i won't be able to forget.You have some very thoughtful profile posts.Made me think quite a bit,

Also I never knew what an ant's face looked like till now . I'll try to avoid stepping on them now.
 
Alexandra0

Alexandra0

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
244
I honestly don't think that's possible.i won't be able to forget.You have some very thoughtful profile posts.Made me think quite a bit,

Also I never knew what an ant's face looked like till now . I'll try to avoid stepping on them now.
Hahaha, I love you, thank you :)
 
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