Story fluke of living

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i feel cursed.. thr slcircumdtances around my brith wer not well inyended. a griup of persons did not want me born. my paremtd dod nit listen. in mybcukture no one question authority. you wiill bmet with threats. need to gdt this off my chest. i pushv everyone away. i cannot be helo. u made a mistake earky in kife. hubris cloud judgement. coulhd not stop snd keot. going. i neger fekt i eiuld get success in life . j knew ti be careful. nothinh ib mybenvironment amount to sucess.

i drainmt familg noney. day sfter day. tget knew i coyld not be afgorded. tget did not want to be known to didown a child. piueple lokk at them now. could motb stop and continue to grow untul i could nor will to kive under then anymorr. theur cukturev ws too much. too much thing to quesftion. too much uncare. thmey wanted me ti live....why???

authoriry live throgh thier children. itbnever eas sbout mysuccess....their sucess mattee. if a chuld has to govthrough a thoudand needles they will praise to theriself. for the chijd survival. for the child journey.

.ib was given hopebti live av bertter lufe. i ruibed it. my familt ruibed it. toi mhvh hoope isva faiertale. it doess not happen. egrn if a cilture makes ir self softer and smarter. ir does not haopen. dearyh is the solution to thode who cannot care for hoope. i hste pity. a person who cannot care for jope meeds no pity. simply death.