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[Fadeaway_bankz]

This is my first post on this forum site. I'm a 23 year old young black autistic male who has never had a girlfriend, never been kissed by anyone, never had sex, never been truly loved or cared about by anyone. Women hate and fear me. All my life women have ignored me, ghosted me, avoided me, rejected me, reported me, blocked me, friendzoned me. Women pretend that I don't exist. I don't have that many friends. Most of my friendships in life have struggled and failed. Most people treat me like shit. Most people think I'm stupid and ugly. Most people don't want to see or talk to me at all. I don't get along with my family. My family hates me. My parents are divorced. My parents hate and regret having me. I'm currently unemployed and desperately looking for a better job. I'm alone most of the time. I'm not in school right now. I just workout for fun in the mornings at the gym. Before I created an account for this forum site, I would always visit this site daily just to see and hear from likeminded individuals. I don't know what to do with my life right now. Sometimes I think suicide is the answer…

 

[darksouls]

hello welcome to sasu

 

[Roadrunner]

Welcome, I hope this place helps you as much as it has helped me.

 

[chemicalburns]

Welcome!

 

[lemonandcapers]

This is my first post on this forum site. I'm a 23 year old young black autistic male who has never had a girlfriend, never been kissed by anyone, never had sex, never been truly loved or cared about by anyone. Women hate and fear me. All my life women have ignored me, ghosted me, avoided me, rejected me, reported me, blocked me, friendzoned me. Women pretend that I don't exist. I don't have that many friends. Most of my friendships in life have struggled and failed. Most people treat me like shit. Most people think I'm stupid and ugly. Most people don't want to see or talk to me at all. I don't get along with my family. My family hates me. My parents are divorced. My parents hate and regret having me. I'm currently unemployed and desperately looking for a better job. I'm alone most of the time. I'm not in school right now. I just workout for fun in the mornings at the gym. Before I created an account for this forum site, I would always visit this site daily just to see and hear from likeminded individuals. I don't know what to do with my life right now. Sometimes I think suicide is the answer…

First of all, welcome to the site. Second of all, I am sorry to hear you are going through this! I am also autistic, so I can somewhat understand how it feels to feel undesired by people for that reason. The job market is rough right now as well. It is increasingly difficult to get a job, and it is shitty that it is this way. I'm glad you have working out to do for fun though. Given everything you have said, I can see how you would gravitate towards suicide

 

[NikolaiK]

I am an autistic male in my twenties, always been an outcast, unemployed for many years but just started working again part time after finally finding a job that doesn't give me social anxiety. I had a girlfriend once when i was 15 - 18 years old but been single for more than 10 years now and i don't mind it. I also workout regularly and it really helps keep me going. Glad to hear you are working out, it really helps me get through the day and gives me some goal to work toward and excitement to see future results and progress, plus exercise just feels amazing. I will probably leave this world at some point but the small things are keeping me going for now. Anyway i kinda get where you are at, i hope things get easier for you