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everydayiloveyou
Arcanist
- Jul 5, 2020
- 490
Hi everyone, I haven't felt the need to come onto here after increasing my meds but here I am lol
so i just got home from my very first party... It was people from school, but we met online first. It was really awkward for me and I feel so bad. I'm disappointed in myself since I will have to tell my therapist I didn't enjoy it, and that I might've been better off ditching like I had planned.
It was nice meeting everyone but probably they don't like me as much anymore, since irl I'm not attractive at all. I also have a disability, and I'm just a slow and awkward person. Online it's different since I have time to think about what I say.
the worst part: I don't drink and everybody else was. I played some pong (they felt bad for me I bet, I couldnt even do well since I'm vision impaired anyways) but otherwise it felt really awkward to be the only painfully shy and sober one there.
Tomorrow I'm going to buy some alcohol and drink it alone in my dorm so I can see my tolerance. After today, I remember why I still go on this site. It's like everything goes downhill when I'm not able to hide behind my screen.
What are you guys' experiences at parties?
so i just got home from my very first party... It was people from school, but we met online first. It was really awkward for me and I feel so bad. I'm disappointed in myself since I will have to tell my therapist I didn't enjoy it, and that I might've been better off ditching like I had planned.
It was nice meeting everyone but probably they don't like me as much anymore, since irl I'm not attractive at all. I also have a disability, and I'm just a slow and awkward person. Online it's different since I have time to think about what I say.
the worst part: I don't drink and everybody else was. I played some pong (they felt bad for me I bet, I couldnt even do well since I'm vision impaired anyways) but otherwise it felt really awkward to be the only painfully shy and sober one there.
Tomorrow I'm going to buy some alcohol and drink it alone in my dorm so I can see my tolerance. After today, I remember why I still go on this site. It's like everything goes downhill when I'm not able to hide behind my screen.
What are you guys' experiences at parties?