ecmnesia
the only thing humans are equal in is death
- Aug 30, 2020
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been dealing with depression and anxiety since 10, plus sexual abuse trauma, self harm, a fucked up family and extreme personality inconsistency.
never could wrap my head around the fact that normal people tend to push those like myself away, no one (at least I haven't met someone different) wants to deal with our mental illness, no one can stand us. friends tend to say you can reach out if you need, still in the end, when you do, no one gives a fuck, they treat you as if you were a bother.
well my father was recently diagnosed with anxiety and artrites, and started his medication. he was already hard to deal with, and now it's ten thousands time worse.
I can't stand to be around him, he's totally pushing my buttons. Demands attention all the time, is constantly venting about how he feels and using me and mother as if we were his personal therapists (while refusing to see one). He is extremely moody, changes his mind all the time, and the even the most insignificant things gets a huge reaction from he.
I now can understand why everybody left me and pushed me away. I feel guilty that I'm like this towards him, though, and am doing my best to support him, but God, is it hard.
never could wrap my head around the fact that normal people tend to push those like myself away, no one (at least I haven't met someone different) wants to deal with our mental illness, no one can stand us. friends tend to say you can reach out if you need, still in the end, when you do, no one gives a fuck, they treat you as if you were a bother.
well my father was recently diagnosed with anxiety and artrites, and started his medication. he was already hard to deal with, and now it's ten thousands time worse.
I can't stand to be around him, he's totally pushing my buttons. Demands attention all the time, is constantly venting about how he feels and using me and mother as if we were his personal therapists (while refusing to see one). He is extremely moody, changes his mind all the time, and the even the most insignificant things gets a huge reaction from he.
I now can understand why everybody left me and pushed me away. I feel guilty that I'm like this towards him, though, and am doing my best to support him, but God, is it hard.