Story Finally starting to like the way I look.

[suprswag]

I have almost never liked how I look (my face, not my body, I'm fine with my body). It has been this way since I was even 9,
possibly younger. Today I decide to try to cover my facial insecurities with makeup to see how I felt (I've never really tried makeup before), and when I had it on, looking at myself, I realized I didn't "look like me". I took the makeup off, and realized I actually somewhat like how I look. Because I look like me I guess.

This is huge for me, because my appearance has always made me cry, but for the first time for a long time, I'm finally starting to accept myself. I feel like this is one small step to becoming better, and somewhat mentally okay.

 

[Seven Threads]

How'd it feel, if you don't mind me asking? When you saw what you looked like in make-up, and realized you wanted 'you' back, how did you feel about that in the moment? Did anything in particular stand out? Some feature or quirk you can recognize that, when other people look at you, really cements that it's you?

For me, it's my brow. I have a unibrow, and very deep-set eyes, so unless I raise my eyebrows deliberately it always looks like I'm scowling.

 

[suprswag]

How'd it feel, if you don't mind me asking? When you saw what you looked like in make-up, and realized you wanted 'you' back, how did you feel about that in the moment? Did anything in particular stand out? Some feature or quirk you can recognize that, when other people look at you, really cements that it's you?

For me, it's my brow. I have a unibrow, and very deep-set eyes, so unless I raise my eyebrows deliberately it always looks like I'm scowling.

I felt just kinda odd, I noticed I looked more "attractive" I guess, but I didn't like it. I actually hated it. I have a lot of redness (more pinkish) on my cheeks, and pretty visible dark circles. I've never really liked my smile lines, but with the makeup on, you could barely see them. Which for some reason I didn't like, I'm not sure why.

There's more to my appearance that was covered, like acne, I have this one acne scar thats a little on the left of my nose, I guess when it was covered, it didn't look like it was "my" nose, which I didn't like, I immediately wanted it off when I couldn't see the scar.

I'm not sure why I felt this way, I'm not sure if anyone else feels this way, either.

 

[Seven Threads]

I think it's pretty understandable actually. You may have different feelings about how you look from time to time, but even when you dislike your appearance, your brain still recognizes it as 'you'. You can see yourself in it, you know who this person is and what they're thinking.

When you cover up too much or change things too dramatically, that sense of familiarity is lost. The person in the mirror becomes a stranger, someone alien and foreign. Heck, even minor changes that don't look right to your brain can make you uncomfortable. It's one of the reasons most people don't like how they look in photos; the perspective is flipped horizontally, so everything looks off compared to the version you're used to seeing in the mirror.

I hope this stays with you. I really do. You don't have to always love how you look, but I hope the familiarity brings some comfort when you're struggling.

 

[suprswag]

I think it's pretty understandable actually. You may have different feelings about how you look from time to time, but even when you dislike your appearance, your brain still recognizes it as 'you'. You can see yourself in it, you know who this person is and what they're thinking.

When you cover up too much or change things too dramatically, that sense of familiarity is lost. The person in the mirror becomes a stranger, someone alien and foreign. Heck, even minor changes that don't look right to your brain can make you uncomfortable. It's one of the reasons most people don't like how they look in photos; the perspective is flipped horizontally, so everything looks off compared to the version you're used to seeing in the mirror.

I hope this stays with you. I really do. You don't have to always love how you look, but I hope the familiarity brings some comfort when you're struggling.

That does make sense.
For a while after doing this, I'm wondering how people who wear makeup everyday feel.
And thank you, you're a really kind person, I hope life treats you well.

 

[MoonlitNight]

I have almost never liked how I look (my face, not my body, I'm fine with my body). It has been this way since I was even 9,
possibly younger. Today I decide to try to cover my facial insecurities with makeup to see how I felt (I've never really tried makeup before), and when I had it on, looking at myself, I realized I didn't "look like me". I took the makeup off, and realized I actually somewhat like how I look. Because I look like me I guess.

This is huge for me, because my appearance has always made me cry, but for the first time for a long time, I'm finally starting to accept myself. I feel like this is one small step to becoming better, and somewhat mentally okay.

I remember what that felt like! it feels exhilarating doesnt it? Im really happy you can see yourself that way! Just be careful of the not-so-good days when life goes bad and little things get to you. Those are the moments that I find my eyes, darkened circle and more facial features really hard to be happy with. I hope the good feels continue to stay with you :)

 

[kakapepe]

How'd it feel, if you don't mind me asking? When you saw what you looked like in make-up, and realized you wanted 'you' back, how did you feel about that in the moment? Did anything in particular stand out? Some feature or quirk you can recognize that, when other people look at you, really cements that it's you?

For me, it's my brow. I have a unibrow, and very deep-set eyes, so unless I raise my eyebrows deliberately it always looks like I'm scowling.

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Love the shirt bro and also you can fix an unibrow but I don't think it needs any fixing since it's unique!!! :)

 

[aSilentVoice]

Beauty standards are often unrealistic anyways with so much photo shop, plastic surgery, and heavy make up. And "perfection" can look unnatural. There's beauty and realness in imperfections.

I'm glad that you're coming to accept and like how your face looks. Good work!

 

[Mirrory Me]

It seems disturbed, but every time I look in the mirror, a part of me smiles.

 

[hungry_ghost]

How'd it feel, if you don't mind me asking? When you saw what you looked like in make-up, and realized you wanted 'you' back, how did you feel about that in the moment? Did anything in particular stand out? Some feature or quirk you can recognize that, when other people look at you, really cements that it's you?

For me, it's my brow. I have a unibrow, and very deep-set eyes, so unless I raise my eyebrows deliberately it always looks like I'm scowling.

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