Akeolodo
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- Oct 13, 2019
- 62
Hi, I won't disclose my legal name for obvious reasons. I'm 21 and have been lurking on this site for a few months now and haven't posted anything yet. I'm slightly tired so please understand what I'm going to try and say.
On the 24th of January, I'm finally going to commit after being paid and living life for a bit. I've had multiple failed attempts though CO Poisoning and Alcohol Poisoning, 1st one due to mother throwing away charcoal, chimney burner, tent and calling the police on me.
"So, how are you going to successfully commit this time?", quite simple actually, thankfully to the SS community I have discovered a painless effective solution of using nitrogen gas, I've done some research and decided to buy from eBay a nitrogen gas cylinder of 2.2 liters 100bar (effectively producing 2200L in gas), Mig e97 regulator, oxygen mask, and duct tape to tape the 6mm tube to the 4mm regulator hole then go and book a hotel room for the night to finally die.
All the equipment will be concealed in a backpack.
"Why do you want to commit suicide", for a few reasons mainly money, paranoia and extreme overthinking, for the last few years after leaving college, I've had little to no opportunity of a stable, decent life ( The only decent job I had, I hated) and have reverted to hanging to little gleams of hope only to realise they never have and will never get me anywhere. I've tried everything, fluoxetine, sertraline, diazepam, lorazepam, and quetiapine all prescribed by GP's and Psychiatric doctors.
I've been sectioned multiple times to no avail, and just want to end it all as I see no hope in life but stress, depression, and anxiety. I believe that there is an afterlife that our bodies die however our souls are reborn. Sometimes I feel like I've just been dealt the wrong cards in life.
I live in the UK, West Midlands if that helps.
All The Best, Peace
On the 24th of January, I'm finally going to commit after being paid and living life for a bit. I've had multiple failed attempts though CO Poisoning and Alcohol Poisoning, 1st one due to mother throwing away charcoal, chimney burner, tent and calling the police on me.
"So, how are you going to successfully commit this time?", quite simple actually, thankfully to the SS community I have discovered a painless effective solution of using nitrogen gas, I've done some research and decided to buy from eBay a nitrogen gas cylinder of 2.2 liters 100bar (effectively producing 2200L in gas), Mig e97 regulator, oxygen mask, and duct tape to tape the 6mm tube to the 4mm regulator hole then go and book a hotel room for the night to finally die.
All the equipment will be concealed in a backpack.
"Why do you want to commit suicide", for a few reasons mainly money, paranoia and extreme overthinking, for the last few years after leaving college, I've had little to no opportunity of a stable, decent life ( The only decent job I had, I hated) and have reverted to hanging to little gleams of hope only to realise they never have and will never get me anywhere. I've tried everything, fluoxetine, sertraline, diazepam, lorazepam, and quetiapine all prescribed by GP's and Psychiatric doctors.
I've been sectioned multiple times to no avail, and just want to end it all as I see no hope in life but stress, depression, and anxiety. I believe that there is an afterlife that our bodies die however our souls are reborn. Sometimes I feel like I've just been dealt the wrong cards in life.
I live in the UK, West Midlands if that helps.
All The Best, Peace
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