Finally convinced

[Whats wrong with me]

I have tried and tried to right the wrong around me. But now these narcissistic fucks have convinced me that I am the problem. I now have nowhere to go that is peaceful. The pain grows inside me with no one who understands. I want to die. I have a gun I have tried twice to pull the trigger. I suppose I'm a coward on top of all my other problems.

 

[teddybear1403]

We're here if you need to talk, but I wish you peace and hope you find solace whichever your decision is, we'll be here to support you.

 

[LMLN]

Oh no, you are not a coward at all. Ctb is not easy, especially your method.
Don't let anyone else convince you that you are a problem. Dont let them drive you to take your life if you have other options
Is there a way for you to get away from these people that upset you?
We are here to listen. ❤

 

[Ghost2211]

Hello and welcome. I'm sorry to hear people around you are creating such a toxic environment. Is it possible for you to be away from them? I assume if you have a gun and it is your preferred method you have enough experience and knowledge to know that you would do it correctly? It would really be a shame to shoot oneself incorrectly and cause more problems.

 

[Pol]

I have tried and tried to right the wrong around me. But now these narcissistic fucks have convinced me that I am the problem. I now have nowhere to go that is peaceful. The pain grows inside me with no one who understands. I want to die. I have a gun I have tried twice to pull the trigger. I suppose I'm a coward on top of all my other problems.

what made you say you're the problem?

 

[Whats wrong with me]

Hello and welcome. I'm sorry to hear people around you are creating such a toxic environment. Is it possible for you to be away from them? I assume if you have a gun and it is your preferred method you have enough experience and knowledge to know that you would do it correctly? It would really be a shame to shoot oneself incorrectly and cause more problems.

I know. I have researched the best way which in your mouth at a 30 degree angle up with a shotgun. A sawed off one at that. It will reliably perform. And it is near the bottom of the agony scale. Thanks for listening.

what made you say you're the problem?

Rejection and attacks on me from my group. When I try to defend myself. Everyone gangs up on me. Either I'm the problem or the 8 people that seem to long for me to leave is the problem. So makes more since that it is me.

We're here if you need to talk, but I wish you peace and hope you find solace whichever your decision is, we'll be here to support you.

The pain boils inside me. The darkness is overwhelming. I have no joy or interest in anything other than my dog. Which I am confident is the one reason I'm alive today.
They are toxic.

 

[Sensei]

Excuse my French, but don't let the fuckers kill you. it sounds like there's something wrong with them, not you.

 

[Dead beat dad]

I have tried and tried to right the wrong around me. But now these narcissistic fucks have convinced me that I am the problem. I now have nowhere to go that is peaceful. The pain grows inside me with no one who understands. I want to die. I have a gun I have tried twice to pull the trigger. I suppose I'm a coward on top of all my other problems.

Hello brother it sounds like you're in a very dark and desperate place. You must feel very angry and alone.
If you do, I feel you my brother, the dark and the lonely are my neighbours and we call each other home.
For what it is worth I don't think you are a coward, I don't know your exact details but I know pain, as I'm sure do you. Is there anyone either personally or professionally you could open up to or with the help a plan you could put in place to get you away (physically, emotionally, spiritually), from the toxic things in your life?
No judgement my brother, I hope you can find some light in the sea of darkness.
DBD

 

[Whats wrong with me]

Hello brother it sounds like you're in a very dark and desperate place. You must feel very angry and alone.
If you do, I feel you my brother, the dark and the lonely are my neighbours and we call each other home.
For what it is worth I don't think you are a coward, I don't know your exact details but I know pain, as I'm sure do you. Is there anyone either personally or professionally you could open up to or with the help a plan you could put in place to get you away (physically, emotionally, spiritually), from the toxic things in your life?
No judgement my brother, I hope you can find some light in the sea of darkness.
DBD

Thank you seriously. It is lonely. If your not dealing with this pain it is hard for anyone on the other side to understand. I have had no one to talk to.

Excuse my French, but don't let the fuckers kill you. it sounds like there's something wrong with them, not you.

Thank you.