Finally attempted hanging and I failed

[Sweetsinking]

Just a story. I made my account early 2023 and finally attempted for the first time on the 30th of December 2025, and failed. My home has no anchor points, I was on a trip with my boyfriend with a shower I knew would be sturdy enough for me to partial hang, I wasn't planning on anything though.
Eventually while sleeping I went through that phone... yea.. I was betrayed (not cheated on though), sent myself $200 off of his phone and more impulsive shit. I know life can go on after relationship issues, but I was over it. I just decided to take my pants, tie it around the shower door thing (its a sliding glass rail track..?), then make a final opening for my neck.

The part for around my neck? Sturdy, then keeps slowlyyy slipping undone. After many tries and tutorials, he woke up and found me standing in the shower with a half done noose. The first thing I said when he went to me was that "I'm stupid." I guess that's what I get for using victoria's secret pajama pants to kill myself lmfao. I wish I had figured out how to tie that last part effectively though, it was hard since it was a pair of pants and one pant leg was already tied around an anchor. I never got to a long enough point where I felt things besides pressure and a lack of breath. At least I didn't end up a vegetable though!

Well if there's any advice on ctb I'll take it, I just don't want to buy an actual rope and I don't have easy anchor points.

 

[sanctionedusage]

kinda on the nose

 

[hell toupee]

I'm sorry you got to this point.

As to advice about ctb, I think you found out why it should never be an impulsive decision - only because not preparing properly greatly increases your chance of failing and ending up with all of the problems you have now, only to be compounded by possible physical damage, such as severe brain damage from hanging.

You've been a while so you might already know this but you should take a little bit of time to study the resource section of the forums.

I wish you the best.

 

[Sweetsinking]

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kinda on the nose

I've thought about this lmaooo. Ironic with my pfp + I've loved the manga since 2017. Method was not inspired though

I'm sorry you got to this point.

As to advice about ctb, I think you found out why it should never be an impulsive decision - only because not preparing properly greatly increases your chance of failing and ending up with all of the problems you have now, only to be compounded by possible physical damage, such as severe brain damage from hanging.

You've been a while so you might already know this but you should take a little bit of time to study the resource section of the forums.

I wish you the best.

You're right. I definitely have gone through the forums, I guess I never thought I'd be figuring out how to tie a noose with a pair of pants though. Thanks

 

[hell toupee]

You're right. I definitely have gone through the forums, I guess I never thought I'd be figuring out how to tie a noose with a pair of pants though. Thanks

Ya, that's kind of a bummer. I am not certain how true this is, but in a hanging study that looked at all hangings except long drop, which breaks the neck and utilizes a different mechanization than arterial compression. In that study they stated that in >95% of all FS hangings, consciousness was lost within 20 seconds, and often less than that. They went on to state that people who did not successfully occlude the carotids usually were a)not putting enough pressure on the ligature, such as with most the partial positions, it also said that people whp used broad material like bedsheets and scarves often had more difficulty. That is NOT to say that people are not successful using broad material like you did, it very well could be that most of them lose conscious rapidly - the statement is saying by using broad material you are increasing the probability that something goes wrong People apparently have a much easier time compressing the carotids using something thin and hard, like a rope or cord.

 

[2muchpain2]

Just a story. I made my account early 2023 and finally attempted for the first time on the 30th of December 2025, and failed. My home has no anchor points, I was on a trip with my boyfriend with a shower I knew would be sturdy enough for me to partial hang, I wasn't planning on anything though.
Eventually while sleeping I went through that phone... yea.. I was betrayed (not cheated on though), sent myself $200 off of his phone and more impulsive shit. I know life can go on after relationship issues, but I was over it. I just decided to take my pants, tie it around the shower door thing (its a sliding glass rail track..?), then make a final opening for my neck.

The part for around my neck? Sturdy, then keeps slowlyyy slipping undone. After many tries and tutorials, he woke up and found me standing in the shower with a half done noose. The first thing I said when he went to me was that "I'm stupid." I guess that's what I get for using victoria's secret pajama pants to kill myself lmfao. I wish I had figured out how to tie that last part effectively though, it was hard since it was a pair of pants and one pant leg was already tied around an anchor. I never got to a long enough point where I felt things besides pressure and a lack of breath. At least I didn't end up a vegetable though!

Well if there's any advice on ctb I'll take it, I just don't want to buy an actual rope and I don't have easy anchor points.

kate spade used a scarf, so you aren't dumb.

 

[ghost-shock]

Ya, that's kind of a bummer. I am not certain how true this is, but in a hanging study that looked at all hangings except long drop, which breaks the neck and utilizes a different mechanization than arterial compression. In that study they stated that in >95% of all FS hangings, consciousness was lost within 20 seconds, and often less than that. They went on to state that people who did not successfully occlude the carotids usually were a)not putting enough pressure on the ligature, such as with most the partial positions, it also said that people whp used broad material like bedsheets and scarves often had more difficulty. That is NOT to say that people are not successful using broad material like you did, it very well could be that most of them lose conscious rapidly - the statement is saying by using broad material you are increasing the probability that something goes wrong People apparently have a much easier time compressing the carotids using something thin and hard, like a rope or cord.

Ive definitely tried a cord before but i only felt the sensation of the head filling up with blood. When i attempted full suspension the same thing happened, i didn't loose consciousness in 20 secs, i was suspended for definitely over 10 minutes before being found. When the noose came off i then collapsed. I could hear everything around me but couldn't move by body at all until i was given oxygen for a while. I dont understand how i didn't loose consciousness quicker.

 

[Sweetsinking]

Ive definitely tried a cord before but i only felt the sensation of the head filling up with blood. When i attempted full suspension the same thing happened, i didn't loose consciousness in 20 secs, i was suspended for definitely over 10 minutes before being found. When the noose came off i then collapsed. I could hear everything around me but couldn't move by body at all until i was given oxygen for a while. I dont understand how i didn't loose consciousness quicker.

That's interesting do you have any consequential effects now from that ? Or any other sensations and thoughts before losing consciousness and after?

 

[ghost-shock]

That's interesting do you have any consequential effects now from that ? Or any other sensations and thoughts before losing consciousness and after?

Currently I don't have any affects that i have felt or that I know of. I have thought about it and i worry if there are any affects that can creep up later in life or that are currently there and i just haven't felt them.

I didn't have any sensations or thoughts before loosing consciousness, after someone walked in my room and cut the noose of my neck, i sat down and was ok for a few minutes until i started to feel a little weak then just dropped to the floor.

While i was out, the thoughts i had was that i was scared that i had done damage to my body since i couldn't move any body part but i could still hear and feel. I couldn't even open my eyes or talk. When the paramedics were talking to me and poking my body to see if i could react, i couldn't move. I admit it was scary. I cant remember how long it took for me to wake up.

I had to be taken in a stretcher to the hospital and hooked on oxygen. At the hospital, after i had all vitals checked and was deemed ok, i told the psychiatrist that i had regretted it and i wouldn't do it again (which wasn't true, i would just make sure the next time is actually fatal) They let me go the same day. I was surprised since i had been forced to go to a psychiatric hospital before.