Oh that sucks. I just asked you a question in another thread and then I realized you're gone already. Regarding the stimulants, I can relate a lot. It feels amazing but being dependent on them sucks. I've been doing cocaine for a few months and it's on my mind constantly. And I know stimulants and depression are a very dangerous combination. The substance will eventually take control and I guess that's what you're going through. I'm sorry about that. I wish we could have talked more before you left.
Well, I wish you luck and peace.