Final goodbyes hurt

[restingplace]

Just said my final goodbyes to my best friend, I cried the whole walk home, he doesn't know thats the last time he's going to see me and I feel awful for that, I love him so much but I need to let him go and be happy without me. If he finds this then hi bobinski hah, I love you and I'm really sorry I had to do this to you, thank you for helping me out

 

[day]

even when talking to people who understand my ideation and plan it's insanely difficult for me as well. the amount of times i've backed down because i'm sobbing after goodbyes is more than i'd like it to be at this point. maybe i should stop trying it? idk.

 

[LifeIsCrazyNemb]

I admire your courage.

I dont have the courage to have this kind of talk with my family and friends, i would imediatly break down and cry and that will make me postpone my CTB.
Unfortunately im just going to leave the good bye letter.
So sad...

 

[Ksmиda]

I dread the day when I have to say goodbye, I'm afraid I won't say enough or that I won't say what I really mean.

 

[WaitingPatiently]

I've told some friends about previous attempts, and they've been nothing but understanding.
I couldn't bear to disappoint them in telling them that I'm still in a bad spot, and saying goodbye would almost be like failing them for me.

 

[uncat_]

Have a restful last day, man. You deserve to have peace in whatever form that'll be. I wish things in this life had worked out for you the way you wished them to.