final decision

[ganpres37]

happy to say it's been a while since i visited this site. however, i am back, again. seems like i can't leave. while gone, i got better, and then worse. then better, and then worse. now, i have hit the bottom of the barrel. i have decided my life is no longer worth living. i've had it with suffering. no more. i'm unsure what awaits me after death, but i don't much care either. i could wake up tomorrow and have the love of my life, straight A's and a million dollars and i'd still want this to be over. i hate myself and i hate most people. i am so tired of dealing with anxiety and my feelings. no more. i refuse to live like this. i will likely be posting some for a while before the day finally comes. thank you to all the lovely people on this site who were there for me when others weren't or didn't understand. you are all truly appreciated.