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creep
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- Apr 29, 2020
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I had a lot of privileges in life - I don't mean to brag (see the whole post), but here it goes:
And even in communities like this one I feel like I don't belong because my life hasn't been bad enough to want to die. Anyone relate?
- a loving, capable mother and other supportive and nice family members
- being born in one of the richest countries with excellent healthcare and uni education options for everyone
- decent looks, which allow me to get away with things I know I should not
- decent intelligence, I am by no means exceptional but am able to make a comfortable living without slaving away
- daily extreme overeating. As a bulimic I eat and purge over 30000 cals, every. single. day. (yes, that's the correct number of zeroes)
- having never had close friendships for longer than a couple of months
- having never kissed a girl
- having been homeless for 2.5 years as a result of addiction and neglecting finances. Only reason I got out is the awesome social services in my country.
- my mood reliably being determined by single positive or negative interactions with any person. As a 26-year-old I am still completely dependent on what others think of me.
- really wanting to be dead
And even in communities like this one I feel like I don't belong because my life hasn't been bad enough to want to die. Anyone relate?
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