Feeling nothing

[Ksmиda]

To me, the worst feeling is when you can't even feel depressed. As in you feel horrible and want to die but you feel nothing - feeling numb.

 

[hikikomorizombie]

i felt like that for a long while but then i stopped feeling even the numbness, & now idek how to describe what state im in. i just react to stimuli now. make myself laugh when i need to & look/act upset or shocked when i need to. it sux not having that constant overwhelming anguish anymore, it was my driving force to ctb.

wish i could see a psychiatrist for 1 final diagnosis b4 i kms, help me understand a bit more of what's been happening to me.

 

[Mitsumi]

I don't mind feeling numb because it helps me , I feel like I'm not myself, I'm watching from the outside and just don't care. When I'm sad for too long I feel very desperate and try to ctb if I have anything available.

 

[Slow_Farewell]

it's kind of a good thing for me.
it makes making decisions a bit easier, in a way, but i'd say it comes at a heavy cost.

 

[Hollowman]

i felt like that for a long while but then i stopped feeling even the numbness, & now idek how to describe what state im in. i just react to stimuli now. make myself laugh when i need to & look/act upset or shocked when i need to. it sux not having that constant overwhelming anguish anymore, it was my driving force to ctb.

wish i could see a psychiatrist for 1 final diagnosis b4 i kms, help me understand a bit more of what's been happening to me.

I can relate, I think I'm in a similar state. So you think a pdoc could figure it out? I have serious doubts they can help me after dealing with six of them.

 

[hikikomorizombie]

I can relate, I think I'm in a similar state. I have serious doubts they can help me after dealing with six of them.

:o omg really?? no1 ever knows what i'm talking abt when i describe that to them.

& no, i doubt they'd be able to help in any meaningful way. after seeing therapists, psychologists, psychiatrists, psychotherapists, & counselors, i now view that stuff as a scam/mass placebo effect. i just wish i could get a final diagnosis b4 ctb so i'd have some type of explanation for it & things.

 

[Hollowman]

:o really?? no1 ever knows what i'm talking abt when i describe that to them.

& no, i doubt they'd be able to help in any meaningful way. after seeing therapists, psychologists, psychiatrists, psychotherapists, & counselors, i now view that stuff as a scam/mass placebo effect. i just wish i could get a final diagnosis b4 ctb so i'd have some type of explanation for things.

No one's ever understood when I've tried to explain it either. Now I'm so deep in it I barely can. I view them the same too.