So I have always tried to be responsible with the money I make from my job but now that I have to ctb in a few months, I am failing to logically convince myself to keep being responsible, I feel like since I will be dying soon enough, why not spend it and give into my worst impulses, it feels like I am playing with house money with nothing to lose.
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KuriGohan&Kamehameha
想死不能 - 想活不能
- Nov 23, 2020
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Having a similar mindset to you, I spent savings on a trip to Japan last year even though it was fairly unwise financially and meant I have to work even harder now. I think experiences like that are worthwhile, especially if you are at the point of thinking, "what do I have to lose?"
Do something you've always wanted to do, if things are already at rock bottom, is how I've always seen it. Do something fun and spontaneous. While I don't know your reasons for contemplating ctb, some people find renewed purpose and a feeling of being alive again after the thrill of experiences they've had while lacking inhibitions.
Do something you've always wanted to do, if things are already at rock bottom, is how I've always seen it. Do something fun and spontaneous. While I don't know your reasons for contemplating ctb, some people find renewed purpose and a feeling of being alive again after the thrill of experiences they've had while lacking inhibitions.
