Feeling joy when checking out potential CTB location

[MidLifeCrisis]

I had a strange experience today. I went for a walk to check out some woods where I may want to go to CTB, and I found myself laughing and experiencing joy, which I have not done for a long time due to my depression. I thought "this is where I am going to die", and it made me happy to think about it. Nothing else in life is able to make me happy.

Has anyone else had a similar experience of being happy by making plans for CTB?

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Yes I did back before apathy took over I remember walking in the woods looking for the perfect tree to hang myself 7 years ago early in the morning while the sun was rising after having smoked weed all night it felt good in a weird way.

Also I absolutely love your profile picture the lightning is just so nostalgic, can you PM me the full pic?

 

[BridgeJumper]

I can definitely relate. I feel happy whenever I find another perfect bridge, perfect building, perfect tree. I dont necessarily laugh out loud from joy but I do feel content and satisfied.