Venting Feeling increasingly unsafe and paranoid in my country.

[Insomniac]

I live in a very poor country with an extremely instable government and I'm feeling increasingly unsafe as the days pass.

I can't even go outside anymore. Every time I go out.. for example I tried to go out the other day to buy some milk and people in the street looked at me like I was the plague.

It's because even though my family is not rich compared to westerners (to westerners I'd just be a little above middle class), here I'm considered "rich".

Sometimes I hear the house staff talk about politic and it absolutely scares the shit out of me. I'm sensing an emerging rebellious spirit from them. My biggest fear is that there will be a revolution of some sort and people start attacking people considered rich and I'll be stoned to death or worse burned at the stake or emprisoned in some filthy place.

A few months ago my old classmate got his house stoned by civilians and the police did nothing.

My instinct is telling me that something terrible is on the horizon and I'm completely stuck and helpless.

I know I can be paranoid sometimes but everyday we hear stories of people getting kidnapped or murdered because of their social class or because they are atheists.

I honestly don't know what to do, I already had insomnia but now I litteraly deliberately wait until 8am to sleep because I don't trust Security, even though they're respectful towards me I feel an energy of growing resentment emanating from them.

I'm so sick and tired of this world. I just want to die.

And it doesn't help to read the news, I learned that there was a terrorist conspiracy in Kazakhstan??

I just want to die. It's not just my country the whole entire world is becoming really really scary. Even scarier than before and everything constantly seems like it's gonna explode.

Are you one of these people who are suggesting to do what the Frenchs did to their king/queen? I used to see posts of people on reddit encouraging civil war (on r/latestagecapitalism for example).

If you are, I hope you know that we are all the rich of someone, and that if you wish for civil war to happen and you support the "#eattherich" movement, then there will be people poorer than you ready to eat you too (don't forget what happened to Robespierre).

Sorry for posting this trash of a post, I feel really unsafe and paranoid right now.

 

[lostautist]

I'm sorry. I can't even comprehend how that would be, but it sounds like a further progression of what may come to happen here in the US one day. I hope you find the security and peace that you deserve.

Maybe it's horrible to say, but it sounds like somewhere I could find a place, perhaps not. I wish I could find some sort of side where I could dedicate my life to and have some kind of meaning or purpose. In my face adversity is something I've usually done well with. I live in the US where there is very little action to do anything positive unless you have the elitist means, which I do not. The only thing that people really do is get mad and then post online how they're really angry and show up somewhere waving various flags and scream at people who they disagree with rather than doing anything meaningful. It sounds like a place I could find a cause or acceptance doing anything more than I can do here or die trying. I've searched too. Providing for my basic needs is the struggle.

 

[myopybyproxy]

Are you one of these people who are suggesting to do what the Frenchs did to their king/queen? I used to see posts of people on reddit encouraging civil war (on r/latestagecapitalism for example).

If you are, I hope you know that we are all the rich of someone, and that if you wish for civil war to happen and you support the "#eattherich" movement, then there will be people poorer than you ready to eat you too.

Out of curiosity, which country are you in?

No need to apologise for expressing yourself. Especially here. That sort of insecurity sounds terrifying. Is there anything you can do for protection? Learn self defence, purchase weapons and things like smoke bombs, create chemical hazards, arrange for an escape. I don't know what you're able to access or willing to do. Just some ideas that hopefully you find helpful. Sometimes researching and planning methods calms me. But it's not the first thing I would advise.

This is a good point and well worded too.

 

[Insomniac]

Out of curiosity, which country are you in?

unfortunately all I can tell you is that it's a really really shitty country with cannibals. yes, cannibals. People are starving.

Is there anything you can do for protection? Learn self defence, purchase weapons and things like smoke bombs, create chemical hazards, arrange for an escape. I don't know what you're able to access or willing to do

It's not legal to carry self defense weapon in my country. What people do when they feel unsafe is they donate money to charity, people in the street etc. My mom makes sure to generously tip people. I also rarely go outside without being escorted.

But even so, it feels like it's never enough. I understand them because I also feel like this towards some people in the world (for example Bill Gates compulsively buying all the land in America is infuriating me).

I just don't think there is anything more that I can do to protect myself. I thought about getting acid or making a gun myself but carrying a weapon would be very dangerous as it'd make things more tense (people can sense when you're on the defensive..).

 

[Snake of Eden]

Often people who envy the very rich are not even poor at all themselves. I hope you are safe

 

[Crazy4u]

this is truly a complicated problem to have. I wouldn't feel comfortable not having any self defense tools with me (e.g. pocket knife, pepper spray).

The world is more violent than ever. People are using force to resolve silly problems. It is life human lives don't matter.

 

[Insomniac]

this is truly a complicated problem to have. I wouldn't feel comfortable not having any self defense tools with me (e.g. pocket knife, pepper spray).

The world is more violent than ever. People are using force to resolve silly problems. It is life human lives don't matter.

the problem is the level of ignorance that goes on in these communities. How ignorant must they be to even believe that someone like me is the cause of their misery? I don't think these people would believe me if I told them about the salary of people like Buffet, Zuckerberg, etc. I don't even think these numbers exist in their languages.

I want to feel for them but their ignorance is almost infuriating. I don't deserve the death stares and I'm one of the last people on earth they should turn against. Honestly paranoïa isn't the only thing I feel, I'm also very angry and feel like if it goes on like this I could burst too.

 

[Crazy4u]

the problem is the level of ignorance that goes on in these communities. How ignorant must they be to even believe that someone like me is the cause of their misery? I don't think these people would believe me if I told them about the salary of people like Buffet, Zuckerberg, etc. I don't even think these numbers exist in their languages.

I want to feel for them but their ignorance is almost infuriating. I don't deserve the death stares and I'm one of the last people on earth they should turn against. Honestly paranoïa isn't the only thing I feel, I'm also very angry and feel like if it goes on like this I could burst too.

they won't believe you. You live in heaven (according to them). They probably accuse you of being spoiled or ungrateful. When I ctb, I won't be surprised if I came across as negative and ungrateful. What problems do I have? nothing compared to others!

I don't relate much to members who say they are scared of death. I'm scared of life. I lived my entire life prioritizing my comfort and safety over my happiness. Result? I don't feel safe, comfortable, secure, or HAPPY! I'm miserable.

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

this is truly a complicated problem to have. I wouldn't feel comfortable not having any self defense tools with me (e.g. pocket knife, pepper spray).

The world is more violent than ever. People are using force to resolve silly problems. It is life human lives don't matter.

I've heard stories over the years of women being assaulted on trains etc, and its always the same. They were looking down at their phone, not aware of their surroundings, didn't have something to defend themselves with. Now the new trend is that people don't even help them as its happening right infront of them. The entire world is getting more messed up but the cities are like the epicenters of things worsening.

 

[lostautist]

unfortunately all I can tell you is that it's a really really shitty country with cannibals. yes, cannibals. People are starving.

Oh shit. I guess I'll retract most of what I said. I can't comprehend how bad it must be there. That's horrible. Nobody should have to live somewhere it's bad like that.

 

[Insomniac]

Oh shit. I guess I'll retract most of what I said. I can't comprehend how bad it must be there. That's horrible. Nobody should have to live somewhere it's bad like that.

yes... not to mention that climate change is hitting the country extremely harshly.

 

[Fre_diE]

Same.

 

[Superdeterminist]

I live in a very poor country with an extremely instable government and I'm feeling increasingly unsafe as the days pass.

I can't even go outside anymore. Every time I go out.. for example I tried to go out the other day to buy some milk and people in the street looked at me like I was the plague.

It's because even though my family is not rich compared to westerners (to westerners I'd just be a little above middle class), here I'm considered "rich".

Sometimes I hear the house staff talk about politic and it absolutely scares the shit out of me. I'm sensing an emerging rebellious spirit from them. My biggest fear is that there will be a revolution of some sort and people start attacking people considered rich and I'll be stoned to death or worse burned at the stake or emprisoned in some filthy place.

A few months ago my old classmate got his house stoned by civilians and the police did nothing.

My instinct is telling me that something terrible is on the horizon and I'm completely stuck and helpless.

I know I can be paranoid sometimes but everyday we hear stories of people getting kidnapped or murdered because of their social class or because they are atheists.

I honestly don't know what to do, I already had insomnia but now I litteraly deliberately wait until 8am to sleep because I don't trust Security, even though they're respectful towards me I feel an energy of growing resentment emanating from them.

I'm so sick and tired of this world. I just want to die.

And it doesn't help to read the news, I learned that there was a terrorist conspiracy in Kazakhstan??

I just want to die. It's not just my country the whole entire world is becoming really really scary. Even scarier than before and everything constantly seems like it's gonna explode.

Are you one of these people who are suggesting to do what the Frenchs did to their king/queen? I used to see posts of people on reddit encouraging civil war (on r/latestagecapitalism for example).

If you are, I hope you know that we are all the rich of someone, and that if you wish for civil war to happen and you support the "#eattherich" movement, then there will be people poorer than you ready to eat you too (don't forget what happened to Robespierre).

Sorry for posting this trash of a post, I feel really unsafe and paranoid right now.

That's utterly terrifying. Sorry you have to deal with this nightmare.

 

[Al_stargate]

That's bad man, people staring you down as you walk down the street because they think you're privileged. My guess is you're from South Africa or perhaps a country in South America. At some point, your family might need to start considering moving elsewhere.