Gaga786
The Odds Are Never In My favour
- May 3, 2020
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Everyone despised me back in high school. That resulted in bullying; I was told that I was pathetic, worthless, a nuisance etc. It destroyed me from the inside. Even now, no one does like me in real life. It's probably because I am worthless in every sense.
No matter how much kindness I try to generate and display, I'll always be the loser. What is worse is that im trapped in this world, so I have to relive my trauma and nightmares on a daily life. People say other's opinions don't matter, but it does for me to a great extent because thats how self worth is defined.
I just keep on ruminating as to what my life would have been if I had been more popular in school. No one knew what it felt like just sitting in the corner during classes or break without any friends and be chased around by everyone.
Even the 3rd grades would bully me– I was In grade 5 at the time–and chase me around. That should explain how worthless I really was and am. And did everyone succeed in breaking me.Yes! I am broken beyond repair at this point, and life seems unbearable. This does contribute to my suicidal tendencies
No matter how much kindness I try to generate and display, I'll always be the loser. What is worse is that im trapped in this world, so I have to relive my trauma and nightmares on a daily life. People say other's opinions don't matter, but it does for me to a great extent because thats how self worth is defined.
I just keep on ruminating as to what my life would have been if I had been more popular in school. No one knew what it felt like just sitting in the corner during classes or break without any friends and be chased around by everyone.
Even the 3rd grades would bully me– I was In grade 5 at the time–and chase me around. That should explain how worthless I really was and am. And did everyone succeed in breaking me.Yes! I am broken beyond repair at this point, and life seems unbearable. This does contribute to my suicidal tendencies
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