Feeling anticipatory grief

[SchizoGymnast]

I'm a caregiver to a couple aging family members and while they are currently doing well, I find myself grieving their deaths ahead of time. It robs me of the time I have with them.

I grieve the life I thought I would have, and opportunities forever missed.

I suppose I could make an attempt, but as I've said many times, I would probably survive everything I try. I'm just not allowed to die.