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ikadasui
Arcanist
- May 29, 2018
- 466
I have to group up with people in 2hrs and it's driving me insane. I can't stomach the anxiety from it at all, and I want to attempt right now. I doubt I can even do a successful attempt right now my family is home and I don't have a strong tool to hang myself with, but I just can't do it. Feels like I'm surrounded by flames and they are inching closer by the second, I'm afraid if I go to this event the one person who I really care for will finally tell me off and then I'll have nothing. It's been bad for so long and tomorrow looks even worse because it will be more of the same as tonight+ work. I can't do it! I've never felt such fucking dread before, but I can't be conscious for this I'm fucked
Tying a make shift noose now, I doubt it will work but I'm out of fucking ideas. Locking my door so at least nobody will get in for a while. Hope this is it
Tying a make shift noose now, I doubt it will work but I'm out of fucking ideas. Locking my door so at least nobody will get in for a while. Hope this is it
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