F'ed beyond repair in the head

[GeorgeEastman]

This is how you know it's time to go.

Once you know that even if you had everything exactly how you wanted it, you wouldn't believe it. I have every damn thing I ever wanted and more. But it seems fake, like a fluke, won't last, can't last. I can't handle it. Everything is supposed to suck and be terrible.

This is all wrong. Feels too wrong. The anxiety of how wrong it feels is overwhelming. Pressure. There is major pressure to give it all up so it will all suck badly enough to jump off that damn bridge.

Yeah, fucked beyond repair in the head.

 

[TiredHorse]

Oh man. I have bits of that, and I think I've felt it a little in the past, but from what I read, you've got it worse. I'm so sorry. The bits I know are hellish.

 

[dysfunctional]

Right there with you. Totally derailed and lost it.

 

[ancryxia]

Agreed. If there were a surefire way to get rid of all mental illnesses and actually feel like other normal people... well let's just say I'd be one of those people right now. The truth is mental illness this bad cannot be cured, not by therapy not by meds, the only cure is a peaceful sleep forever.

 

[polyswarm]

Feel the same way

 

[Donewith_]

I'm messed up in the head and have also fucked up relations around me. Such a long journey ..

 

[Meeseeks]

I've screwed up so many relationships I can't bear it. I've put myself in a lonely corner and I want it to stop.