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Nov 17, 2024
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The main thing from holding me back from committing ctb is an overwhelming fear of what might occur after death. I was raised as a Christian but eventually stopped believing in the existence of God and became an atheist. Despite that, the uncertainty of what lies beyond death continues to haunt me. I have read stories from people who experienced temporary death and were later revived. The accounts that terrified me the most involved the concepts of "hell" or a "black void." The thought of an eternal, dark void is especially terrifying to me. I would much prefer the idea of ceasing to exist entirely over any continuation of awareness or consciousness. Whenever I contemplate taking my own life, I'm not afraid of the act itself or the method. It's the possibility of entering a void or facing an unknown existence that is enough to make me back out everytime. I want to overcome this fear and stop being held back by thoughts of what comes after death.
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
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I believe in a God & it has worried me, but oddly, after coming to this forum I have been feeling better.
But ya, I think " what if I'm wrong about" scenarios. You're not alone. There's probably many that worry about it 🌹💔
 
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monstercatering

monstercatering

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Apr 4, 2023
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I believe it will be something like the void but that gives me peace. I think in death there is finally salvation or complete peacefulness. I agree with some of the conclusions of buddhism where existence is inherently suffering. Or pessimistic stuff like there is more suffering in life than there is pleasure. So I think non existing is the only way to get rid of that suffering and that it will be complete peacee and eternal fulfillment. It may not sound convincing I don't have advice for you to believe this just saying for me it is a very comforting thought.
Another thought that comforted me before I started believing this stuff is that if you imagine what your experience before you were born is, that's what death is. I can't explain it more than that but the way I imagine it is not suffering or scary. Also if you are a logical person because the people that had NDE were still medically alive they don't know what death is actually like, and there is no way a living person can figure out what happens after death it is something you may just want to will yourself out of worrying about because until your dead there is no way to know, and once you are dead it won't matter what happens anyway, because you are dead.
 
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Gustav Hartmann

Gustav Hartmann

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Aug 28, 2021
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We will all find out what comes after death. Only if, how we live and die has an impact on what comes after death it is worth to think about it.
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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There is no continuation of consciousness after Death. After Death is non-existence forever. What am i ? Only this body and this brain. That is tested every time i think about it and look around . i'm always trapped in this brain and body. always have to feed it 3 times a day, groceries , wash it etc. Wherever you go there you are. what else could i be but this brain ? there is no evidence for anything else.

All thinking , consciousness , viewing of the world is created by the brain. you only see the world from the perspective that the eyes transmit light signals to the brain.

After the brain dies it can never create consciousness nor pain which is the best thing to me.

non-existence forever is the best thing to me , no pain no problems no suffering no bad memories ever.

There are libraries of books, papers, web pages that have proof on top of proof of what a human is , what life is and how life originated. There is no one line in a book about the brain that contradicts that a human is just a brain , 30 trillion cells. same for a book on molecular cell biology or evolution. And there is no one single line in any of those books that contradict any line in another of those books . Each line each page each chapter each book further strenghtens the evidence further confirms it . the more you read and think about it and test some of these things you see the evidence is overwhelming , incontrovertible.

There is no line in a book or web page that breaks the evidence nor that contradicts the other sciences. it all fits together . even in a book about molecular cell biology you see how chemical reactions formed simple machines that then formed cells from the tinyest details these machines and chemical processes have been analyzed. They've been working on what is life , what is a human for hundreds of years. all the sciences confirm each other even physics, artificial intelligence , chemistry , cell biology.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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So far, the evidence seems to point to death being permanent non existence. When you die, you lose consciousness meaning there's no "you". It's like a permanent dreamless sleep or permanent anesthesia. There's no hell or heaven as depicted in religions nor is there any "void" that we go through and stay conscious. These things have only been developed by humans to cope with the idea of being permanently non existent after death
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I also wish to just cease existing as well, nothingness is all I personally hope for, I just wish for the absence of existence where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me. Personally I'd never fear ceasing to exist as I believe death to just be non-existence which is all I see as desirable, I fear this existence instead that just causes endless amounts of suffering, I see existence as so cruel and futile. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
Mooseanonsky

Mooseanonsky

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Apr 13, 2018
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I'm an atheist, sometimes agnostic. I don't want to believe there is a god because how cruel would it be that God exists and created humans to suffer? People are tortured to death, die of hunger, die from lack of healthcare in the US, assaulted, get terminal cancer, murdered.

And yet, I think when I die I'll go to my ideal afterlife—no longer able to feel hungry, thirsty, chronic pain, stress, loneliness, mental illnesses. So if I'm dead and alone for eternity, I'd be alright.

But I think I'm deluding myself. I want to ctb but sometimes I think how scary it'd be. It's just a void, pure darkness. Would I even know I ctb? I think cowardice is the reason why I'm still here. I know most people think suicide is cowardly but idk, I kinda disagree. You ignore your survival instincts, willing to feel pain as you die whether it takes seconds, minutes, hours? Sounds brave to me. Anyway, maybe one day my desire to CTB will outweigh the fear of nothingness.
 

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