fear of speaking about addiction?

[overthrone]

I wont exactly go into detail about what I'm addicted to, how it started or anything like that, I just want the answer to one simple question:
Is anyone else too embarrassed to admit they're addicted to something?
I personally am, because I feel I've failed as a person - like I got into something I thought was so simple, and now I can't get out.
That I walk around everyday seeing signs and warnings about addiction and I heeded all of them, but never truly understood.
When I go to sites that are supposed to help with addiction, their only suggestions are therapy or medicine.
I can't talk to a therapist out of my embarrassment, and I have to talk to someone about my addiction in order to get medicine.
I don't know what I want out of this - maybe I just need to scream into the void, but I can't take this addiction much longer, my guilt is going to kill me before the addiction does.

 

[underairpressure]

Shame plagues me, too. I don't think I truly understood a thing about addiction before it happened to me. I'm scared I' mnot even "addicted" and only playing pretend to save myslf from guilt, but, all I know is that I've spent so much of my life on this now, and it's deeply entrenched into me

The MH system horrifically failed me in the past and I know going back will mean beign abused or discriminated against for the rest of my life. I don't want to face that fate. But you're right, people have little other "help" to offer.

"My guilt is going to kill me before the addiction does". I can;t count how many times I've thought the same. I'm also scared