What are you most afraid about death? How will you overcome it?
Nothing really I fear living
i guess the finality... and those who will be hurt when you do CTB.... funny i had a dream last night that i was standing on the ledge of a very tall building and I just couldn't jump in my dreams because of the fear.... if i can't jump in my dreams, i don't think i have it in me to jump in real life...
Empty Smile
The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
- Jul 13, 2018
- 1,785
Nothing. I embrace death with open arms.
Retched
I see the chaos in your eyes.
- Oct 8, 2018
- 837
I'm slightly wary of death, but not as much as I am sick with living.
What's stopping you?
Sinbad
Self-Annihilation is loading...95%
- Nov 27, 2018
- 542
DariaBuPL
Can't take all of this anymore
- Nov 30, 2018
- 27
I was really scared of the pain I would feel while dying. But I guess I don't care about it anymore.
Kdawg2018
Still here...
- Nov 10, 2018
- 272
I fear failing my attempt
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 6,804
I fear the most about feeling pain if I fail. However, with my method of choice, given that I hit the right areas, I should not survive not even be conscious to feel any pain (instantly lights out and death very soon after). Also, I will overcome it by going through many practice, dry runs, so that I will be as comfortable and calm as possible before the real attempt.
Dreamland
Member
- Dec 1, 2018
- 11
I'm afraid of something going wrong. And also of the whole dying process. I'm not sure what to do. I'm hoping that maybe I can find the answers here.
I hope you do too. Welcome to the forum
It's not death that bothers me, it's the process. Especially after Eden2k's update. My plan isn't to book a hotel and take it there, but to go somewhere far away from humanity to make sure nobody calls medics on me like in her (?) case.
Still, the violent vomiting made me frown a little bit.
Still reading on the acid reducer and antiemetics. Not sure about the doses and am getting near no info about it.
Still, the violent vomiting made me frown a little bit.
Still reading on the acid reducer and antiemetics. Not sure about the doses and am getting near no info about it.
Watson
Wats-on your mind?
- Nov 28, 2018
- 165
I think I'm more afraid of the moment right before death. That split second that might feel like an eternity where all the guilt and doubt may arise, only to dissipate faster than the thought could fully manifest wherein you realize... you don't know what you're doing.
peacefully31425
Dirtbag
- Aug 28, 2018
- 162
I fear becoming a vegetable. Beyond that, I don't actually fear death in a logical sense. My lizard brain keeps me from slitting my throat, but I still want to die.
GiveMeNovacaine
Member
- Jun 11, 2018
- 50
Not knowing what it's like. I wish I could do some sort of test run.
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Crazy I
Madman
- Nov 28, 2018
- 61
I too wish that i could do a test run incase something went wrong. I dont want to turn into veggies.
I used to fear death because i was afraid of hell, but once i realized that this is a dream, i wasnt afraid of hell anymore. So i guess schizophrenia took the fear of death away from me. I believe that i will wake up from this and live a different life. Or if this is real life, i will cease to exist and feel nothing, because then there is no god.
Im only a little bit afraid of the process of hanging, i know i will choke and stuff. And a bit afraid that i will change my mind as im hanging there. But it should only take a few seconds.
Im only a little bit afraid of the process of hanging, i know i will choke and stuff. And a bit afraid that i will change my mind as im hanging there. But it should only take a few seconds.
Jiva
I want ...
- Nov 18, 2018
- 493
Death can not be more scary than a life.
So life feels like a dream to you because of the Schizophrenia? I can understand that. I go through a lot of derealization because I think a lot about stuff and sometimes have psychotic-like thoughts but I can still second guess myself so it's not actual psychosis but then I second guess the second guesses. Like thoughts of being in the wrong universe and I switched places with another version of myself. Stuff like that.
I don't know, I have received signs that this is a dream, but everybody else says I have schizophrenia. I used to have that dreamlike feeling some time ago, but not for the past few years, since I started taking antipsychotics. By the way, being in the wrong universe in much discussed as part of the mandela effect, in certain subreddits in reddit. I don't subscribe to that theory though, I believe weird things happen because we're in a dream and they are signs to make us realize it. And also, I had these signs long before I was diagnosed, they started when I was eighteen.
Also, you're definitely not psychotic if you have second thoughts, intrusive thoughts can be the result of depression and anxiety...
Pasting from another thread:
The occurrences started in 2011. I had a prophetic symbolic dream about a guy I would later date and who acted badly towards me. On the night we met, I saw his angry face and I fell down, and bright colors and stars flashed, and it was very cold. The next I saw a dream that had beautiful music, and the music still played around me for a few seconds after i woke up. I also met a guy with brown eyes, I remember liking him a bit just because of his brown eyes... They were really pretty, but one day they turned blue, all the old pictures of him had blue eyes now, and they are still blue. I also had a few other dreams happen. And sometimes I read some text or book, but the next time I read it, it has changed... There are also subtle changes in the bible, for example, when I read it, it didn't mention Jesus siblings names, but now it has Jesus brother's names.
I've had a lot of similar occurrences with the dream stuff, like things have changed for me personally but everyone else doesn't recognize the changes. I've had long lasting depression for like 4 years and sometimes it's in the background but when it gets bad it's called "major depression with psychotic features". Not full on psychosis. I do have some form of OCD so that doesn't help with the rumination. Have you ever felt depersonalization? I've had a number of episodes but none in the last couple years. Now it's more derealization kind of feelings like feeling a bit detached from people. Usually it's caused by extreme immidiete stressors like a crowded mall or something. The worst was back in 2015 were I felt like I was in third person for a day and a half, looking down on myself. Scary stuff.
For a few months, after I smoked too much weed in 2014, I thought I was already dead, and all my interactions with other people were in my imagination... It was crazy, I took a puff and immediately everything went gray and dead. I'm not sure it that was derealization or depersonation, more likely derealization. I don't have a tendency to think of myself as a third person, except when I act on impulse, then I feel like a I have a demon inside me. :(
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Ha! Same thing happened to me that year with edibles. It was then that I realized how fragile the human mind is and especially mine in particular. Also, by third person I meant the out of body feeling of looking down on yourself. Like you're playing a videogame and controlling a character.
Ha, I get that feeling when talking to my psychiatrist... Can't tell him I'm going to kill myself, so I pretend I'm playing in a drama. Btw, feel free to tell me more your experiences about anything surreal. What were the changes that everybody else doesn't recognize?
Just subtle details--like objects or events-- in my life that seem off. I might look at something and notice that it's slightly different but a loved one says it's always been like that. It doesn't help that the derealization makes everything around me feel foreign. Walking the same streets I've always walked yet they feel off. It's only when I'm actively engaged in something like music that the feeling subsides for a short while. Maybe I'm just super depressed and thinking too hard lol
Empty Smile
The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
- Jul 13, 2018
- 1,785
GhostedToast
Wants to disappear
- Sep 25, 2018
- 144
I'm scared of what may come after, I'm scared of the nothingness but yet I'm terrified of what else there will be to come if i dont go. I don't want to go through life feeling as if most days are torture, constantly exhausting myself just to try to make others happy or do what's expexted of me by either family standards but mainly society. I won't just go out and hold a conversation if someone starts one with me I'll just stand there kinda awkwardly.
Alot of what's driving me to this though is past experiences as well what I'm currently going through and my own issues such as my Aspergers. Depression and anxiety suck alot ti where some days it feels unbearable to where i can barely leave my room but to me my aspergers feels like a prison that's inescapable. I want to try to be social but for me to meet new people and try to act normal or try to understand it's hard to where it feels like I'm trying to communicate from light years away. But it also brings me to a really big reason i stay which is my dog who i was training from my parents and friends suggestion to be a service dog. He's the sweetest goof and is really empathetic and i cant bring myself to do something to hurt him in anyway. He may be "just a dog" but to me the past couple years I've had him he's become one of my best friends. I don't want to have to worry aboit him when I'm gone and be left questioning if he'd be alright.
Sorry for the rambling.
Alot of what's driving me to this though is past experiences as well what I'm currently going through and my own issues such as my Aspergers. Depression and anxiety suck alot ti where some days it feels unbearable to where i can barely leave my room but to me my aspergers feels like a prison that's inescapable. I want to try to be social but for me to meet new people and try to act normal or try to understand it's hard to where it feels like I'm trying to communicate from light years away. But it also brings me to a really big reason i stay which is my dog who i was training from my parents and friends suggestion to be a service dog. He's the sweetest goof and is really empathetic and i cant bring myself to do something to hurt him in anyway. He may be "just a dog" but to me the past couple years I've had him he's become one of my best friends. I don't want to have to worry aboit him when I'm gone and be left questioning if he'd be alright.
Sorry for the rambling.
Trashcan
Trash
- Aug 31, 2018
- 1,234
I'm not afraid of it. I just have trouble overcoming the survival instinct.
