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lsdycion
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- Aug 6, 2024
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Hi, this is my first post. I'm sorry if this thread topic has been discussed before; I tried searching the forums for something similar, but I couldn't find anything. This may be the fault of user error, though, as I am still familiarizing myself with the layout of these forums.
I've no fear of death or pain or anything, but the idea of failing my suicide and being left permanently disabled, mentally or physically, is one of the biggest reasons I haven't attempted. Does anybody else feel similarly? Or, maybe, felt similarly in the past?
There's nothing wrong with being disabled, of course, and I understand that if I want to live I should get over my fear, but I resent the idea of being a burden on other people. It's part of the source of my suicidal ideation. I wouldn't mind dying, but the idea of putting a gun in my mouth and misfiring or being caught in the middle of strangulation and then having to live out my life dependent on other people makes me so, so afraid.
I've no fear of death or pain or anything, but the idea of failing my suicide and being left permanently disabled, mentally or physically, is one of the biggest reasons I haven't attempted. Does anybody else feel similarly? Or, maybe, felt similarly in the past?
There's nothing wrong with being disabled, of course, and I understand that if I want to live I should get over my fear, but I resent the idea of being a burden on other people. It's part of the source of my suicidal ideation. I wouldn't mind dying, but the idea of putting a gun in my mouth and misfiring or being caught in the middle of strangulation and then having to live out my life dependent on other people makes me so, so afraid.