Farewell.

[Ladyybugged]

31st October.

Today's the day.
I've got all the equipment i'll need.
Been looking forward to this for a while now.
Guess i always knew that this was inevitable.

Just wanna stop by and say my goodbye. I first stumbled upon SaSu around 3 years ago, and made an account but was mostly a lurker back then.
Everyone i've talked to or interacted with here has been nothing but warm and friendly, a community as non-judgemental as this is a rare sight.

My name is Sahar, i'm 19. And i'll be using a helium exit bag to CTB in the evening today.

Knowing i'm about to die in a few hours does bring me a sort of comfort, along with the fear & anxiousness of my attempt failing.
I'm still remorseful that my family will have to find my body, but i guess i can't do anything to change that, as i have no other option left but to CTB in my room. This has been a long time coming for me, and losing the love of my life the way i did was the final straw. I really hope this works, i'm fucking exhausted and i can't take it anymore.

I don't know if i believe in heaven or hell.
But all i wish for is that after my death, my consciousness is allowed to watch over all the people i've ever loved.

I've loved being a part of SaSu, even if it was for a short time.
To anyone here that has personally reached out to me, thank you for so much for doing so.
It was nice talking to you.

I wish you guys the best in whatever you choose.
And i hope life is much more kinder to you.

Farewell <3

~S

 

[imontheloose]

Goodbye, love. I wish you peace; I hope to join you soon.

 

[peewee]

hey lovely im so sorry to hear this...im sorry youve been pushed to this point, i relate so much. i am actually ctb today as well, i also lost the love of my life which is why im here....sending so much love

 

[woodlandcreature]

Goodbye <3. I'll miss seeing you around, but I really hope you find the peace you're looking for. Many of us aren't far behind you. Good luck on your journey, Sahar

hey lovely im so sorry to hear this...im sorry youve been pushed to this point, i relate so much. i am actually ctb today as well, i also lost the love of my life which is why im here....sending so much love

Wishing you peace as well

 

[setspiritfree]

31st October.

Today's the day.
I've got all the equipment i'll need.
Been looking forward to this for a while now.
Guess i always knew that this was inevitable.

Just wanna stop by and say my goodbye. I first stumbled upon SaSu around 3 years ago, and made an account but was mostly a lurker back then.
Everyone i've talked to or interacted with here has been nothing but warm and friendly, a community as non-judgemental as this is a rare sight.

My name is Sahar, i'm 19. And i'll be using a helium exit bag to CTB in the evening today.

Knowing i'm about to die in a few hours does bring me a sort of comfort, along with the fear & anxiousness of my attempt failing.
I'm still remorseful that my family will have to find my body, but i guess i can't do anything to change that, as i have no other option left but to CTB in my room. This has been a long time coming for me, and losing the love of my life the way i did was the final straw. I really hope this works, i'm fucking exhausted and i can't take it anymore.

I don't know if i believe in heaven or hell.
But all i wish for is that after my death, my consciousness is allowed to watch over all the people i've ever loved.

I've loved being a part of SaSu, even if it was for a short time.
To anyone here that has personally reached out to me, thank you for so much for doing so.
It was nice talking to you.

I wish you guys the best in whatever you choose.
And i hope life is much more kinder to you.

Farewell <3

~S

I am literally crying for you now
I thought I would cry for myself but I am in tears knowing your pain
Did you know that tears of sadness taste different than tears of joy? (Look it up) I don't think it is science I think it is a creator who will welcome us to watch over our loved ones as you wish. I just wanted to share that with you.
Did you know that tears of sadness taste different than tears of joy? Look it up. I don't think that is science I think it is a creator who will allow us to watch over the ones we love once we are gone. Just wanted you to know that.
Bump

 

[Ch4in3dcr0w]

Wishing you peace

 

[rs929]

I don't know your story but I think 19 years old is a bit too soon to lose all hope. You sound articulated and you were intelligent enough to put together an exit bag. It is too difficult for me, I don't know where to start with.
I'm not trying to talk you out of it, because I don't know the exact pain you're going through, but I'm just afraid you don't have the support you need to keep going through and get better. You're just beginning to live.
I wish you peace if this is what you really want.

 

[Riven]

Goodbye, I wish you the best :)

 

[setspiritfree]

I don't know what to say. I don't want you to go but I want you peace. I didn't know it would be this hard for someone I have only seen online.

 

[homeboundcripple]

All the best sahar

 

[MissAbyss]

️ Sahar, I wish you eternal peace 🕊

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

I'm truly sorry your life has come to this point. I wish you the best. Goodbye Sahar

 

[whywere]

Love and universal peace to you.

Always around if changes happen.

Walter

 

[Firefly.Forest]

Sahar, Our paths have not crossed - I wish you peace in your journey.

 

[CTB Dream]

v sry hpe pece no pain no sffr, v sry lif pain sffr

 

[monetpompo]

i hope you find peace sahar

 

[monkeysee2]

Goodbye Sahar. I hope you find the peace you're looking for.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Dear Sahar, I really wish things could've been different for you. It's so sad that you feel this way so young. I wish that life was kinder to you. I wish that life could still be kinder to you. I'm sorry that we're losing you so soon, but I wish you only the best, whichever way you decide. I wish you peace and love, whatever may happen. Thanks for sharing a bit of your journey with us, and please know that you are not alone

 

[$yck]

Goodbye Sahar. I never spoke to you personally but I always saw you in comment sections and you seem great. I'm sorry that life has been so unkind to you and I hope you find the peace you're looking for. Safe travels.

 

[kazatte]

sahar, you will be very, very missed. i know we've never talked but i've seen you in comment sections and i can definitely tell that you're a very lovely person. i'm sending you so so so much love and peace today <3

 

[EternalShore]

I wish you the best, Sahar~ :) See ya, and I'll pray for you~ :)

 

[darksouls]

good luck Sahar
I hope everything goes well for you
and you find the peace you desire

 

[Macedonian1987]

Even though we didn't know each other, I've always valued your posts here. I'm wishing you a gentle transition and eternal peace—may you finally be free from all torment. You'll be missed

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

Found your method post just before today. I hope you might reach peace at last. <3

 

[TheCallOfTheStars]

Wishing you the best of luck and hoping you find the peace you're looking for

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.