snowman626
Mage
- Jan 28, 2019
- 545
Last week i met with a girl i found online that matches cuddlers with ppl need cuddling. She was much more beautiful in person and the session went really good.
The last few days i daydream about her non stop, wishing she was my gf and that she didn't just see me cause i paid her to.
Today i texted her for another session and she didn't text back and im feeling really shitty. Im checking my phone every 2 mins. I thought cuddling would help heal me somehow but if this is the way it goes i think its doing more harm than good
But from this experience i realized i really want a gf and my inceldom is a major part of why i want to ctb.
I initially thought paid cuddling or even a sex worker can solve this but i realize what i crave is a genuine connection with a female.
Paid platonic cuddling is like being hungry and having food in front of you but you can only look at it, smell it, lick it, but can't eat it. Sex with an escort is like being able to chew and taste the food but having to spit it back out so your still hungry
Im was so desperate for that connection with a female before and now i had a small taste im even more desperate.
The last few days i daydream about her non stop, wishing she was my gf and that she didn't just see me cause i paid her to.
Today i texted her for another session and she didn't text back and im feeling really shitty. Im checking my phone every 2 mins. I thought cuddling would help heal me somehow but if this is the way it goes i think its doing more harm than good
But from this experience i realized i really want a gf and my inceldom is a major part of why i want to ctb.
I initially thought paid cuddling or even a sex worker can solve this but i realize what i crave is a genuine connection with a female.
Paid platonic cuddling is like being hungry and having food in front of you but you can only look at it, smell it, lick it, but can't eat it. Sex with an escort is like being able to chew and taste the food but having to spit it back out so your still hungry
Im was so desperate for that connection with a female before and now i had a small taste im even more desperate.
