failure of my ctb

[tomoki]

I tried a partial hanging
but I did not succeed in dying. I used a pull-up bar that can be fixed in a door frame (purchased on request). I started to hang myself, it's not very painful but I felt like a tingle in my face and I quickly lost consciousness but during the agony the bar came off and I regained consciousness. I looked at the clock and spent about 5 minutes hanging on. I feel pretty bad, very dizzy and hopefully I don't have major brain damage. I don't know if I'll have the courage to do it again today.

 

[MissionSucksAssFul]

so sorry for your pain... I hope your next decision is at least a fixed one...

 

[Sulyya]

Hope those feelings pass, sounds difficult.

 

[Dolphin55]

Jesus. I hope you're okay. Take care of yourself, I guess you don't have any major damage if you're typing on here, but still..be careful, I hope you can find something that will work for you if you're still set on ctb

 

[SilentSadness]

That's so depressing, I only wish that we weren't forced to stay in this hellscape the way we are. I hope you are more fortunate in the future.

 

[reiko1337]

Take care, sorry things didn't turn out the way you wanted it. If you're still deciding to ctb, I hope you will be more fortunate next time in your journey.

 

[ChildrensITV]

I hope this is not offensive and it might be because you are desperate but you probably know yourself pretty well and your likely reaction to hanging, so why did you try such a scary, risky, error-prone method? I want to die with every fibre of my being but hanging just sounds painful and risky. Did you really think you could succeed this time or was it a moment of rage, frustration, or other emotions that lead you to it?

This is why I am here tbh. To get information on exitbags so I can go peacefully without mistakes and fails.

Good luck to you.

 

[bestroper]

Failing at ctb is incredibly horrible...I sympathize with you and hope you don't get the after effects

 

[Fwompje]

Failing an attempt sucks, I think you're fine brain-damage wise, you weren't out for that long and you're typing is good. Hanging is a tricky thing to get right, a lot of people practice beforehand. I've seen you posting things in the recovery section, if you want to talk, vent, anything, I'd be up to listen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Failing ctb sounds beyond horrific to me, it disgusts me how we are denied access to more peaceful ways to exit, we shouldn't have to resort to such risky methods. But anyway I hope that you don't end up with any damage, that is certainly what I fear.

 

[Worndown]

Partial has a lot of variables that can cause a failure. Full is more reliable. Will your bar hold your full weight? It sounds like you almost made it.

 

[Mimi_]

Too bad, if the bar hadn't broken, you could have escaped

 

[AngelRosrom]

Hey same for me, I tried 3 days ago, partial, I was ready, I say goodbye to someone and drink some alcohol, I know I pass out, but I wake up like 5-7 minute's later still hanging, but I don't know where I was or what I was doing I just feel a growing pulse and can't stand, like super super drunk, I feel the cable and take of the best I can, some minute's later I remember what I was supposed to do and start crying like never before, I can't even do this right, what I do wrong?

 

[inmyhead]

Sorry to hear this. Failing CTB is the worst. I am planning to hang soon and hope it succeeds. Thinking of you.