Venting Failing to plan out my suicide

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I Extracted 300+ Cherry seeds once and then my family found it and trashed it so I couldn't succeed with the method, I bought poopy seeds and then just found out it's not potent enough to kill me and whenever I think of some plan there's always an obstacle of how it's not going to work. I am tired of this, why is it so hard to die?

 

[Rohit]

M

I Extracted 300+ Cherry seeds once and then my family found it and trashed it so I couldn't succeed with the method, I bought poopy seeds and then just found out it's not potent enough to kill me and whenever I think of some plan there's always an obstacle of how it's not going to work. I am tired of this, why is it so hard to die?

My friend suicide through apple seeds needs very big number of seeds . I tried 270+, I throughly chewed without even getting any headache or any symptom. Violent methods have very success rate and most of the people who died through them did it impulsively and they didn't even fear of failure and also it needs lot of courage if you want to do it without impulsive way .

I have been trying to do ctb , but failed with Nitrogen asphyxiation ( filled in tiny bathroom , because of mask couldn't fix it to it) , apple seeds . Because I do plan and it needs lot of courage, I have to overcome my doubts whether it is going to work or not.

90% of suicides through violent methods we see in internet or daily news , I feel didn't planned for days. This is the one which is making us fail.

Recently I have seen a boy (11th grade) in my country committed hanging just because that day he was beaten infront of students by teachers for wearing knee length body right trousers . Did a 16 old did all the research before doing it ?

NO.

If you expect high success rate , quick , we have to go for violent methods . We too can get above through non violent methods but it has factors like non availability of resources....
*ankle length

 

[MissNietzsche]

M


My friend suicide through apple seeds needs very big number of seeds . I tried 270+, I throughly chewed without even getting any headache or any symptom. Violent methods have very success rate and most of the people who died through them did it impulsively and they didn't even fear of failure and also it needs lot of courage if you want to do it without impulsive way .

I have been trying to do ctb , but failed with Nitrogen asphyxiation ( filled in tiny bathroom , because of mask couldn't fix it to it) , apple seeds . Because I do plan and it needs lot of courage, I have to overcome my doubts whether it is going to work or not.

90% of suicides through violent methods we see in internet or daily news , I feel didn't planned for days. This is the one which is making us fail.

Recently I have seen a boy (11th grade) in my country committed hanging just because that day he was beaten infront of students by teachers for wearing knee length body right trousers . Did a 16 old did all the research before doing it ?

NO.

If you expect high success rate , quick , we have to go for violent methods . We too can get above through non violent methods but it has factors like non availability of resources....
*ankle length

I mean, the nitrogen would have worked had you just used an exit hood...

 

[Rohit]

I mean, the nitrogen would have worked had you just used an exit hood...

Yup. Any oxygen mask would have worked or else a cannister cylinder would have fit to mask but I couldn't able to get that. I even put my hand In to h2s thing but I ran away to next room just a moment after mixing it because of fear I got because many suicide supporting ones strongly suggested not to try this . May be if I could have gathered some courage I would have dead by then itself.

That h2s thing is the most coward thing in my life
Whether you believe it or not , a 14 year old Japanese girl did ctb through h2s which a grown up adult man ( me) couldn't do it