Painless_end
Life is too difficult for me
- Oct 11, 2019
- 794
I have failed at the greatest most important challenge of my life many years back. There's no going back to undo things.
Pro-lifers and well-adjusted people say to everyone "Just learn from the past and don't make the same mistakes again and keep your eyes on the present to make a great future"
Sadly, it isn't true in my situation. When the moment of great challenge arose many years ago, I proved inadequate. I let something go which I shouldn't have. Now it's gone forever.
I had the chance to change my life but I felt mentally under-prepared.
Now it's all gone to hell. My career and my life. And no, it's not recoverable. There was a life flow attached to making that choice that would have made me a completely different person. But since it felt so "hard", I had to let it go. I stood around doing nothing and the opportunity went away forever.
You ever wish you could just close your eyes and lean back in your chair and die of sadness ? That's what I wish every single day now.
Pro-lifers and well-adjusted people say to everyone "Just learn from the past and don't make the same mistakes again and keep your eyes on the present to make a great future"
Sadly, it isn't true in my situation. When the moment of great challenge arose many years ago, I proved inadequate. I let something go which I shouldn't have. Now it's gone forever.
I had the chance to change my life but I felt mentally under-prepared.
Now it's all gone to hell. My career and my life. And no, it's not recoverable. There was a life flow attached to making that choice that would have made me a completely different person. But since it felt so "hard", I had to let it go. I stood around doing nothing and the opportunity went away forever.
You ever wish you could just close your eyes and lean back in your chair and die of sadness ? That's what I wish every single day now.