Davy
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- Mar 24, 2019
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10 days ago I was in the emergency room then the psych ward because I tried to ctb using the CO method but failed.
I parked my car near a river and waited for the sun to go down so there would be less people around to discover me. Actually realising that I would die is actually really different to just having suicidal thoughts, I was thinking about family for a while and crying a bit. I lit the charcoal in a bathroom area and was planning on bringing it to the car but then the cops came. I panicked and turned on my car so they drove and blocked me so I couldn't reverse. Apparently they were on a random patrol that day in that area and I got "really lucky"
Anyway they found out and I had to go to the emergency room. I had to talk to some nurses and wait there for 12+ hours because the "psychiatrist was busy" but I think that's just a way for the hospital to keep you there and for you to calm down. Then I got sent to the psych ward for a few days where they gave me benzos and put me on new anti-depressants. All my parents know now as well my friends.
How is your experience with surviving an attempt?
I parked my car near a river and waited for the sun to go down so there would be less people around to discover me. Actually realising that I would die is actually really different to just having suicidal thoughts, I was thinking about family for a while and crying a bit. I lit the charcoal in a bathroom area and was planning on bringing it to the car but then the cops came. I panicked and turned on my car so they drove and blocked me so I couldn't reverse. Apparently they were on a random patrol that day in that area and I got "really lucky"
Anyway they found out and I had to go to the emergency room. I had to talk to some nurses and wait there for 12+ hours because the "psychiatrist was busy" but I think that's just a way for the hospital to keep you there and for you to calm down. Then I got sent to the psych ward for a few days where they gave me benzos and put me on new anti-depressants. All my parents know now as well my friends.
How is your experience with surviving an attempt?