Failed SN (so far)

[darksunshine01]

I've drank 2x 25g SN with 50ml each of water, the first was almost an hour ago however I threw it up. I took the second around 15mins later which was 40mins ago, I threw this up too but not as much.

I feel shaky but I always do with the anxiety.

I'm sat in limbo just waiting, either for nothingnness or work tomorrow.

I can't do this anymore.

 

[throwaway3246539]

I've drank 2x 25g SN with 50ml each of water, the first was almost an hour ago however I threw it up. I took the second around 15mins later which was 40mins ago, I threw this up too but not as much.

I feel shaky but I always do with the anxiety.

I'm sat in limbo just waiting, either for nothingnness or work tomorrow.

I can't do this anymore.

i m so sorry this happened to you. maybe there s still time for it to work. keep us updated if you feel like it

 

[DreamEnd]

Do you feel nauseas at all? Did you fast prior?

 

[darksunshine01]

Do you feel nauseas at all? Did you fast prior?

Not anymore no, I hadn't had any food 12 hours and still haven't at 14hours.

 

[lionetta12]

I've drank 2x 25g SN with 50ml each of water, the first was almost an hour ago however I threw it up. I took the second around 15mins later which was 40mins ago, I threw this up too but not as much.

I feel shaky but I always do with the anxiety.

I'm sat in limbo just waiting, either for nothingnness or work tomorrow.

I can't do this anymore.

Is your skin blue? Did you get methylyne blue? Did you go to hospital?

 

[MidnightDream]

I'm so sorry for what you've gone through.. but there's almost no physiological way you consumed 50g to no effect.. Like, that should be impossible. Vomiting can complicate things but not to that level.. did you follow the protocol? did you buy the right SN?
Please only answer if you feel comfortable doing so, this isn't an attempt to question or interrogate you but to help you figure out what went wrong, because 50g of the right stuff should have you out like a light

 

[Mickafromloz]

Keep us posted please. Experience feedback is always useful.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so awful what you are going through, it terrifies me how suicide methods can potentially fail, just causing more suffering to be experienced when you really just want to leave this world. But I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you are looking for, best of luck.

 

[sevenelevenths]

Know it won't offer much comfort, but I'm sorry you're in this situation. Did you take any antiemetics?

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

To take that step, believing you're going to die, and then to still be here afterwards, is truly a horrific kind of pain. I have been experiencing it myself for three weeks or so now.

I hope you can find it in yourself to show yourself a little bit of kindness. You are not a failure. You have nothing to be embarrassed or ashamed about.

I'm so sorry that you are in the position you are in. I'm more than willing to listen to anything you have to say. Open offer. I wish you the best

 

[speck]

hope you are ok- we are here if you are wanting to talk.

 

[littlelady774]

There are many things that could've contributed to it:
-It was nitrate instead of nitrite.
-The tap water you used might have been acidic and changed the nitrite to nitrate.
- it wasn't pure SN/ bad brand
- you literally just threw up all you consumed

 

[releasespieces]

I hope you're alright, most people die from doing what you said you did, so this is strange.

Another failed attempt, mysterious. Any other information you can share about your protocol and SN source OP? For the record, member joined 4 days ago and posts with little information, just claiming SN failed them. None of these MANY newbie failed attempts is suspicious to anyone else?
The problem here is that we can't look at any of this scientifically because we should be sensitive to these failed attempts. So we should just comfort people and leave it at that, that's all I'm seeing here. How are we suppose to learn anything about the cause of failed attempts?

I hope you're alright, most people die from doing what you said you did, so this is strange.

Another failed attempt, mysterious. Any other information you can share about your protocol and SN source OP? For the record, member joined 4 days ago and posts with little information, just claiming SN failed them. None of these MANY newbie failed attempts is suspicious to anyone else?
The problem here is that we can't look at any of this scientifically because we should be sensitive to these failed attempts. So we should just comfort people and leave it at that, that's all I'm seeing here. How are we suppose to learn anything about the cause of failed attempts?

Not to mention the trend of people starting these SN failure posts only to walk away from them. If this was me I'd want to know why it failed and I'd be reaching out to the community for advice and support. We haven't heard from the OP in over 24 hours.

 

[lionetta12]

I hope you're alright, most people die from doing what you said you did, so this is strange.

Another failed attempt, mysterious. Any other information you can share about your protocol and SN source OP? For the record, member joined 4 days ago and posts with little information, just claiming SN failed them. None of these MANY newbie failed attempts is suspicious to anyone else?
The problem here is that we can't look at any of this scientifically because we should be sensitive to these failed attempts. So we should just comfort people and leave it at that, that's all I'm seeing here. How are we suppose to learn anything about the cause of failed attempts?

Not to mention the trend of people starting these SN failure posts only to walk away from them. If this was me I'd want to know why it failed and I'd be reaching out to the community for advice and support. We haven't heard from the OP in over 24 hours.

I don't know, I just see so many of these posts now and they freak me out. It makes me question my method more and more. But I don't want to use any other method than SN and I don't have the option to stay alive anymore. I feel trapped, stuck and demotivated when I read these fail posts. I will still use SN, but I worry a lot more about failing and what will happen if I mail off all my passwords and suicide letters but end up surviving. I worry about doing what I want to do during my last days because I'm too worried about the consequences of it if I fail. I used to be so sure and confident in the method, it almost breaks my heart now.

 

[Barteljaap]

I will still use SN, but I worry a lot more about failing and what will happen if I mail off all my passwords and suicide letters but end up surviving.

You can schedule emails to send at a future time, then cancel them if you fail.

That's what I did when I tried to CTB. (I didn't fail with SN though, my method was one much less reliable)

 

[Shu]

I understand everyone being sceptical. There is a video floating around of a girl consuming SN at 95% and it took her 40 minutes to lose consciousness. She didn't suffer though. She also didn't vomit at all. Not sure if the purity changes the time to unconsciousness or not. Maybe the op SN wasen't a high percentage and it took them longer?
They also vomited but didn't say how quickly they threw it up. Maybe they threw up a bunch pretty quickly and it took longer.

Either way wish you well op and hope you're not suffering anymore or that you're okay either way.

 

[dopaminedeath]

offline since their last post. inclined to think all that SN did get to them just took it's time. RIP

 

[trucker247]

I understand everyone being sceptical. There is a video floating around of a girl consuming SN at 95% and it took her 40 minutes to lose consciousness. She didn't suffer though. She also didn't vomit at all. Not sure if the purity changes the time to unconsciousness or not. Maybe the op SN wasen't a high percentage and it took them longer?
They also vomited but didn't say how quickly they threw it up. Maybe they threw up a bunch pretty quickly and it took longer.

Either way wish you well op and hope you're not suffering anymore or that you're okay either way.

Got a link by chance?

 

[araney995]

I believe that SN worked for the OP though

 

[blackhawk2000]

Any Update?
Can someone please provide a full list of foolproof precautions for SN at a link?

 

[Challu]

Possibly r.i.p

 

[Shivali]

 

[DreamEnd]

Any update from op? Is this a success?

 

[reverse03]

Any update from op? Is this a success?

OP was last seen the same day of his last post. We cannot really tell if it is a successful. I just want to believe that they are successful.

 

[mondo9k]

This is why it's VERY important to take an antiemetic first! It will stop you from throwing up and you'll be gone in an hour.