Failed recovery... New plan technicalities needed

[Blacktarheroine]

Hi everyone. It's been about a year. After a failed attempt and a half assed prior , I officially can say I tried giving my all to mental health recovery and no longer am going forward with seeking help. I have given returning to this forum and to my desire to ctb much thought and I feel I'm in the right place. As tempted as I am to explain , specifics are not important. I am no longer able to deal with mental and emotional pain and heartbreak ... I get weaker and weaker as all good things end . I have been miserable and exhausted for so long and it is no way to live...
So, I am very unsure about the importance of painlessness. I'm into the thought of instant or foolproof more so, something that an unsure or shaky hand can't fuck up, am also thinking of a partner again. The main issue is I have a baby. She is young and can't find me or help herself so I need to have a way to signal for someone to come in afterwards , but am unsure how to do that on social media or email accordingly , if theres any way to delay a text? Not doing this properly screwed me up last time. I am also thinking about waiting until baby's dad gets out of prison here in a couple weeks , my only downfall there is having to stick around for so long. I'm on a mobile version of the site making it harder to explore. Anyway. Suggestions and feedback would be great. I'm really glad that this is still up and running.
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[GoodPersonEffed]

Waiting for the dad to get back sounds like a workable idea even though the two weeks is undesirable. Will give you time to figure out your method and logistics. Can keep figuring out how to notify others in case he's unreliable.

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear you are in a bad predicament again. Do take your time to figure out your plan and method, no rush. Whatever you choose to do and what not, I wish you peace and success.

 

[k75]

I am not condoning this, but if you absolutely must go through with it, at least hire a babysitter for the day or something. Please do not kill yourself and leave your baby all alone. You can do a delayed email or text, but that can always fail or something can go really wrong. Your baby depends on you to protect her and keep her safe.