Failed hanging attempt now being watched by my parents fuck my life.

[Marsmia]

Long story short I had ANOTHER failed hanging attempt on new years eve. I was literally so close but the stool I kicked alerted my family and they came in and intervened.

I got absolutely shouted at by all my family calling me all sorts of things and it was incredibly upsetting. They now literally hate me all over again.

They dont leave the fuck alone now. I'm a grown ass women but they constantly monitor me.

They have started going through my mail and my father saw my search history about SN.

I genuinely don't know what to do at this point. Hanging just doesn't seem to work I guess I'm too much of a fucking total idiot and with them checking my mail aswell as UK customs Sn is off the table.

I can't physically live. I feel I can't breathe. A friend of mine died recently but it's only made me crave death more. I genuinely feel I'm just going to mutilate myself from stress at this point.

 

[DreamsOfNothing]

I'm really sorry that happened to you. That sounds awful, and being shouted at on top of everything you're already going through sounds rough and needlessly insensitive on there part. I hope your situation turns around soon and you can find peace. In whatever form that might take.

 

[Morris1211]

Long story short I had ANOTHER failed hanging attempt on new years eve. I was literally so close but the stool I kicked alerted my family and they came in and intervened.

I got absolutely shouted at by all my family calling me all sorts of things and it was incredibly upsetting. They now literally hate me all over again.

They dont leave the fuck alone now. I'm a grown ass women but they constantly monitor me.

They have started going through my mail and my father saw my search history about SN.

I genuinely don't know what to do at this point. Hanging just doesn't seem to work I guess I'm too much of a fucking total idiot and with them checking my mail aswell as UK customs Sn is off the table.

I can't physically live. I feel I can't breathe. A friend of mine died recently but it's only made me crave death more. I genuinely feel I'm just going to mutilate myself from stress

Is hanging as bad as they say it is? Like pain wise.

 

[dalemar]

So sorry to hear that :(
I can't imagine how bad failing could be :S
I hope you can find the peace you deserve soon.

 

[ZaydenX]

I'm really sorry you have to go through this. They basically found you still conscious?