Extremely overwhelmed with life

[ForgottenTomb]

My life has already ended. I held on as long as I did, because I led myself on with the idea that I will have a future that would make this alright. To be realistic, the dreams I held on to were never going to happen. There comes a point where nothing that happens in the future will make up for the suffering. I am done with driving myself crazy with uncertainty, wondering if everything will be okay while there are 0 signs that it will be. Nothing is happening in my life, but I'm extremely overwhelmed with life, like all the walls around me are closing in on me and I am too exhausted and powerless to fight it. There comes a time where I just can't. I can't stay here even if I wanted to have a future. I just have headaches at this point, because I am distressed to hell, like this stinging and pressure that I have to dampen with my hands. I don't want to hurt my sibling at all, but I can't just stay and take on endless amount of distress forever. There is a limit.

 

[amra81nz]

What would need to change to achieve the future you wanted?

 

[ForgottenTomb]

What would need to change to achieve the future you wanted?

That is a good question. My biggest dream is to not drive myself crazy anymore, to have more of a peace of mind. Even if all my circumstances are the same, if I become calm I think I can keep living anyway. I have dreams and I am a bit hesitant to state them publicly, but they are typical so they are not hard to guess. The things everyone wants and has, but I am too incompetent to get.

 

[amra81nz]

That is a good question. My biggest dream is to not drive myself crazy anymore, to have more of a peace of mind. Even if all my circumstances are the same, if I become calm I think I can keep living anyway. I have dreams and I am a bit hesitant to state them publicly, but they are typical so they are not hard to guess. The things everyone wants and has, but I am too incompetent to get.

Well hopes and dreams can be powerful motivation. At least you know what you want. I hope you find the strength and courage to overcome your own mind and work for that life.

 

[atdusk]

I could have written that myself. I try to stay out of the house when I feel that way, I go to the movies, even alone. But sometimes none of these things work.

In the past I went to a support group. It helped.