19andOverdue
Member
- Jun 12, 2022
- 80
I use drugs to self-medicate my baseline of chronic suicidality. I can't stay sober and not dissociate just to stay sane. I hate the feeling of my body I feel sick and empty. Life is so blank and meaningless without being high.
I have to wait a few days until I can re-up, I'm a poly-addict so I take anything and everything whenever I need it. but I'm supposed to face the hell of being broke, suicidal, and sober for the next couple sleepless nights. All I can do now is cut myself and hope I can escape the prison of my mind.
I have to wait a few days until I can re-up, I'm a poly-addict so I take anything and everything whenever I need it. but I'm supposed to face the hell of being broke, suicidal, and sober for the next couple sleepless nights. All I can do now is cut myself and hope I can escape the prison of my mind.