Hi there,
I've been off this forum for a while as my mental health has gone slightly better in the past few months. Unfortunately it didn't last so I'm back. I'm still in an "in-between" state regarding CTB though. I don't know. I have a date in mind yet it feels too early and too late at the same time.
Anyways, I'm challenging the different methods available to me. After rejecting SN, I'm experimenting a bit with partial hanging. I was easily and painlessly able to faint by compressing my carotid with my fingers through my neck, so that was pretty convincing (and addictive at the same time
). I then tried (still """safely""") to experience the same "fainting sensation" with a slip knot using a rope and a tie, and I somehow succeeded but I had to squeeze the knot so hard to get the sensation that it prevented me from breathing. I believe this is expected when hanging, but I found that suffocation quite oppressing and unpeaceful, and I'd rather avoid that.
So my idea to circumvent this suffocation issue was to model and 3D-print a sort of "collar" that I would firmly attach to my hanging tie. It would only compress my carotid and not my throat, letting me breath as long as needed. Here the design I came up with:
The ring just goes in front of the neck (like a collar), and the two tips are pushing directly against the carotid (thanks to precise measurements).
So I tried it, and it worked better than I anticipated. I was afraid that the "collar" would turn around or slip through the neck when the knot tightens, but quite the opposite happened: it just pushed more and more firmly into the "sweet spot", while leaving the throat perfectly opened. That was pretty comfy actually. I'd bet it has pretty high chances of working and be perfectly painless, but I'd like to hear your thoughts on this. Do you think it's a terrible idea? It might well be. May the ability to breath make the death longer or more painful?
Wish you all the best.
I've been off this forum for a while as my mental health has gone slightly better in the past few months. Unfortunately it didn't last so I'm back. I'm still in an "in-between" state regarding CTB though. I don't know. I have a date in mind yet it feels too early and too late at the same time.
Anyways, I'm challenging the different methods available to me. After rejecting SN, I'm experimenting a bit with partial hanging. I was easily and painlessly able to faint by compressing my carotid with my fingers through my neck, so that was pretty convincing (and addictive at the same time
). I then tried (still """safely""") to experience the same "fainting sensation" with a slip knot using a rope and a tie, and I somehow succeeded but I had to squeeze the knot so hard to get the sensation that it prevented me from breathing. I believe this is expected when hanging, but I found that suffocation quite oppressing and unpeaceful, and I'd rather avoid that.So my idea to circumvent this suffocation issue was to model and 3D-print a sort of "collar" that I would firmly attach to my hanging tie. It would only compress my carotid and not my throat, letting me breath as long as needed. Here the design I came up with:
The ring just goes in front of the neck (like a collar), and the two tips are pushing directly against the carotid (thanks to precise measurements).
So I tried it, and it worked better than I anticipated. I was afraid that the "collar" would turn around or slip through the neck when the knot tightens, but quite the opposite happened: it just pushed more and more firmly into the "sweet spot", while leaving the throat perfectly opened. That was pretty comfy actually. I'd bet it has pretty high chances of working and be perfectly painless, but I'd like to hear your thoughts on this. Do you think it's a terrible idea? It might well be. May the ability to breath make the death longer or more painful?
Wish you all the best.
