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Intheo
Student
- Jul 1, 2020
- 119
I've had counseling for years but I have little experience with psychiatrists or doctors who can prescribe medication. In my desperation, I've been reaching out to almost any sort of help and started going to counseling again, but I also booked a meeting with a psychiatrist at a big hospital. I didn't know what to expect but I thought maybe it'd be a counseling session where he'd assess me and maybe prescribe me some meds. My experience was quite disappointing and unhelpful.
I guess I should've expected it from a big hospital but it was nowhere near as personal as a counseling session with my therapist. I was one person in a long line of people and I got sent to one of a doctors who was available. I go into the room and there's a med school student on her computer taking notes and both her and the doc are wearing lab coats behind a a long desk and computers. Okay, way less personal. The doc asks me a bunch of questions about my life and my history with depression, and it was difficult to talk openly and honestly due to the environment and his attitude. He then gave me an explanation of bipolar II disorder and said I have that, not depression. PhDs in psychology have said I have all the hallmarks of depressive mood disorder and nobody mentioned bipolar disorder until now, so that surprised me a bit. He made it seem like mental issues are like a simple math equation like, "just add xyz and you're fixed." He then referred me to another doctor in another area who can get me meds and said if I take some meds that balance out my brain chemistry for a couple months, I should be fixed. Is it that fucking simple?
He basically seemed like most doctors I've met. They act like everything has a simple fix which obviously isn't true otherwise nobody would have chronic health issues. I spent all that money to see this guy only to be referred to another doctor who's probably his med-school buddy so I can pay this other guy to give me meds. But maybe he is right and the answers I've been searching for my whole life is simple as taking meds for a couple months. But then I think about how my country ranks consistently among the highest suicide rates in the world and how wrong many doctors I've encountered have been about things. I'm a bit scared to get meds honestly.
Is your experience with psychiatry as disappointing as mine? Should I go see someone else?
I guess I should've expected it from a big hospital but it was nowhere near as personal as a counseling session with my therapist. I was one person in a long line of people and I got sent to one of a doctors who was available. I go into the room and there's a med school student on her computer taking notes and both her and the doc are wearing lab coats behind a a long desk and computers. Okay, way less personal. The doc asks me a bunch of questions about my life and my history with depression, and it was difficult to talk openly and honestly due to the environment and his attitude. He then gave me an explanation of bipolar II disorder and said I have that, not depression. PhDs in psychology have said I have all the hallmarks of depressive mood disorder and nobody mentioned bipolar disorder until now, so that surprised me a bit. He made it seem like mental issues are like a simple math equation like, "just add xyz and you're fixed." He then referred me to another doctor in another area who can get me meds and said if I take some meds that balance out my brain chemistry for a couple months, I should be fixed. Is it that fucking simple?
He basically seemed like most doctors I've met. They act like everything has a simple fix which obviously isn't true otherwise nobody would have chronic health issues. I spent all that money to see this guy only to be referred to another doctor who's probably his med-school buddy so I can pay this other guy to give me meds. But maybe he is right and the answers I've been searching for my whole life is simple as taking meds for a couple months. But then I think about how my country ranks consistently among the highest suicide rates in the world and how wrong many doctors I've encountered have been about things. I'm a bit scared to get meds honestly.
Is your experience with psychiatry as disappointing as mine? Should I go see someone else?