Discussion Existential uncertainty and my religion

[etchthreemoods]

Hello, I don't know why I'm making this post it's quite stupid to talk about honestly but why not.
Is there even a point to living like is there seriously any point. We live our whole lives in a rat chase towards better lives, which in turn means we have to suffer more to have "an easier life". Maybe one could argue that this life we live is to satisfy some god but I don't even know if I believe in that. It's a big factor into me not ctb, because I don't wanna die unsure if I'm going to hell.

Even tho I've been depressed and suicidal for as long as I can remember my existence, I'm still here. And why? I don't even know. Whatever this is just some random post feel free to ignore.

 

[SufferingDev]

I always felt the only point is to create something from yourself - nothing gives me, for example, more pleasure than contributing to the world - in whichever way