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Midnight-rain
Student
- Jan 1, 2020
- 191
I'm so tired of seeing it. I'll be reading articles on people who successfully caught the bus hoping to find more info on their method but instead be force fed the same copy and pasted banter of, "If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide call 1-800-273-8255." It gets me irrationally angry and makes me feel worse.
I can't escape it either. I'll be looking through some unrelated thread and then boom! Sucker punched with the generic, "Stay strong! Don't do it!" Or "It's not worth it!" I scroll past it every time but each day it gets more and more tempting to angrily respond. Why is it so hard for people to understand that I refuse to play a rigged game? These anti-choice messages taunt me and unnecessarily remind me that I can't ctb yet.
I'm not calling any number. Too many negative anecdotes from others for me to unironically give it a shot. I don't want to be involuntarily commited. Plus I already made up my mind: I will ctb, it's just a matter of when. But the isolation of my decision is killing me. I wish suicide was socially acceptable.
I'm just so thankful this forum exists. Softens the loneliness a bit and makes me feel like part of a community, even if I mostly tend to lurk.
I can't escape it either. I'll be looking through some unrelated thread and then boom! Sucker punched with the generic, "Stay strong! Don't do it!" Or "It's not worth it!" I scroll past it every time but each day it gets more and more tempting to angrily respond. Why is it so hard for people to understand that I refuse to play a rigged game? These anti-choice messages taunt me and unnecessarily remind me that I can't ctb yet.
I'm not calling any number. Too many negative anecdotes from others for me to unironically give it a shot. I don't want to be involuntarily commited. Plus I already made up my mind: I will ctb, it's just a matter of when. But the isolation of my decision is killing me. I wish suicide was socially acceptable.
I'm just so thankful this forum exists. Softens the loneliness a bit and makes me feel like part of a community, even if I mostly tend to lurk.