Everything went as expected.

[Livingvsdying25]

I went to go to the hospital for a med refill and everything went as expected.

I got a 2 week refill and a good review. A note stating that I am stable/trying hard to connect with a doctor/not abusing my benzos amd not med seeking.

So, got some numbers to call for a new doctor and hopefully my old doctor can do something I dunno. Its an overwhelming situation.

I explained myself well. Its exhausting going over my story so many times to so many people though.

Everything went as expected. There is m
nothing left for me to do today in regards to that (expcept a quick trip to the pharmacy.)

Sooo why do I feel so defeated and.. honestly overwhelmed. Im not sure at what. Im managing the best I can and pretty well im most areas...

But i feel like shit yeah kno? Tryna get my life together and facing stigma that leads me to have to go to emerg.. and tell my story and have my life in other peoples hands...

I dunno... the med thing is bothering me a lot. Im thinking dark web. I've been considering it for awhile and im not at a point of abusing benzos I just want my fucking meds in a stable manor. Not have to worry about the next prescription.



I did it. I've been doing the work for lide to work...Doing everything and getting results but I feel overwhelmed still...

Yeah... i feel overwhelmed with everything tbh. I wanna drop something but not sure what or if I can.. and truthfully just wanna enjoy life more than anything.

I always feel overwhelmed tho so it just feels invalid?

Like I'll always be overwhelmed so why bother asking for help/support? Buttttt maybe I've been going too fast. I know my supports won't mind so ima say again... that im overwhelmed. (Take a shot for everytime I've said overwhelmed in this post lmao)

Have a meeting and work some things out.

Im trying

 

[timf]

Trudging through someone elses world can make one feel like a POW. It can be important to find something for yourself to cling to like a favorite book series that allows you to step into a world (even just briefly) that is more pleasant.

 

[WornOutLife]

Yeah... i feel overwhelmed with everything tbh. I wanna drop something but not sure what or if I can.. and truthfully just wanna enjoy life more than anything.

I felt really overwhelmed last night and this morning too.
You can't imagine how much I hate Mondays.

I'm really sorry you're feeling like this but at least you're getting the strength you need to at least go to the hospital. I can't even leave my apartment sometimes. It really sucks.

Anyway, you know I like you and support you lots so feel free to pm me if you need to talk.

Hugs, pal!

Matt