Everything triggers my inferiority complex

[LittleMagician]

I think I am mentally fucked. I was playing a game with my boyfriend and then one random guy in the lobby said I could only win playing with my boyfriend and that I'm not good alone. A normal fucking person would've just ignored that remark from a random kid in the lobby but no, I decided to 1v1 him to prove him wrong, and guess what I fucking lost 5-2. After the round was over he said "see, told you. You've gone quiet now" MAN FUCK YOU FUCKING IDOTIC FUCKING IDIOT. And I know the only reason I'm angry is because it's true, and it fuels my inferior complex even though I know I'm not even bad at the damn game but in a fury I left the call randomly with mu boyfriend and just slammed my body on the bed. I think I have fucking issues because why did this fucking game make me have such a visceral reaction???!!! I don't know what the actual fuck is wrong with me but now I'm in such a shit mood because of a fucking game and I want to self isolate. ITS A FUCKING GAME IDK WHY IM ACTING LIKE THIS HOLY SHIT THERE IS SOMETHING FUCKING WRONG WITH ME BUT I KNOW IT ISNT JUST A GAME IT HAS A DEEPER MEANING BECAUSE FUCKING EVERYONE IN MY LIFE TREATS ME LIKE THIS EVEN A STRANGER IN A GODDAMN VIDEO GAME IM SO FUCKING USELESS I HAVE TO GET CARRIED BY MOTHERFUCKING EVERYONE AND I HAVE IMPOSTER SYNDROME BECAUSE NONE OF MY ACHIEVEMENTS EVEN IN A FUCKING STUPID GAME MEAN ANYTHING

 

[HortEr162]

Are you me? I have the same issue. Every negative comment, insult, word, anything from another person affects me so much and I always take it very personal. I end up thinking about it for weeks, months and even years. And it also ruins my mood for the day and even for the whole week (or month...)

I fucking hate this feeling and I wish I could, I dunno, react to things like a normal person would do.

But yeah, you're definitely not alone in this :')

 

[BrokenMindAndBody]

I do the same kind of things, basically. All my life. It always does feel better if you prove them wrong, though. Words have always stung me hard, though. A lot of people don't take it personally but I usually take everything personal. I've never been able to overcome a lot of that.